MIaowr!
OGL interviews too. :D
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MEEEE!! i still do come here.it holds lots of good memories.hahah. times when we were all kinda high.kinda low.kinda angsty.kinda angry. how can i leave this alone? Ohh man.results're coming back tmr.im really apprehensive bout everythg. i cant imagine what itd be like. i know im gonna potentially sound like a major asshole but i really cant afford to do supp-papers.i cant. i'll have to drop orientation prep,&cant even be an ogl. tht sucks major league. Arghh.super tired. hahahah had 2days of ogl interviews so far. we interviewed ogl applications &it was super fun! hahah we mad them answer really really stupid qns like "why do you think the door is rectangular", "what do you think of sushi". &those really serious ones.we made them cheer,which everyone was up to it la. &the best part was the role-playing part! we played different characters &they had to pretend they were the ogl &had to handle it.ahahah! it was super fun! we acted as bimbos, nsk ahlians &ahbengs, hardcore rafflesians, crashers &even this guy who had a crush on the girl ogl! it was super fuN!! aahahh!theyre responses were hilarious. haahah,we had darren,this guy play an ahbeng from some jurongville. &he acted really well,super kiam pia, even the interviewee was kinda scared la. &she didnt know what to do she was on the verge of tears! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.im kinda not in the mood la.results tmr. wr due tmr. putting up banners for open house tmr. open house on sat. op next wk. Argh!!!!! im just gonna faint! but bottomline is: i love you guys! i dno how it links but yeah. alwys have &alwys will. pray for me! :):)
with Christ in the vessel we can smile:) at the storm!
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im wondering if anyone ever comes here anymore.red's a colour of passion.so i didnt make the cut.i dno if you know what im talking abt.but.nvm.red's a colour of passion.will passion suffice?ever?i dno.whats passion when youre not good enough.isnt this a little too revealing?maybe.i LOVE you all.so there.thts passion embolded(?) and in upper case.yeah.see you guys ard.
star angel?guess again////

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we'll meet each other this friday.
its not that i have ashley means i dont care about you alright.
I STILL CARE, VERY MUCH FOR THAT MATTER.
you have yr friends now in school too what.
we all have other friends, but it doesnt mean that we forget old friends.
i still remember you all.
and i miss you all alot.
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whats wrong with you all?!doesnt this mean anything anymore?am i hurting alone?!where are you you you and you?zhi min you seem so far.you dnt care anymore right?youve found youre own wrld.theres no place for me anymore issit?eunice,youve got ashley.beebs you?councils more than enough?sheeni?too many friends?celeste?whats this abt living in a cave?me?whats this screwing you guys up?dno.dnt care.why shld i?
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would you believe me if i said ive not done a single tutorial since term started?i think not.but do i need you all to believe me?i guess.cause suffocations at its high point.its all coming down.i cant see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.i cant seem to hold up the walls tht are closing in.sharing helps.talking abt it helps.gives my oxygen.gives me breath.its all so bad now cause im on the verge of a major nervous breakdown.i can feel it in my blood.haha.stackstackstack.the pile will topple.its the leaning tower of pizza.or however you spell it.doesnt really matter i guess.this is why God didnt give me council.my future seems so bleak.my knees hurt.gym routine.ive no time.common test.ive no time.ballet.ive no time.i shouldnt have skipped ballet.i regret it so bad now.i shldnt have.i shldnt have.how do i tell you i need a break?when all you'll do is turn ard and scold me.im not superman.if you think scolding me when im already feeling like shit abt skipping class.then carry on.it doesnt matter if im dead or alive.how does it?when i feel like a walking corspe.theres nothing to this life anymore.im sick and tired.do i need to be left alone?yes.but do i need attention?yes.so which is it vanessa?make up your mind.maybe youre the reason for everything youre feeling now.so go kill yourself vanessa.it might work.kill yourself and then combust in eternal flames.combustion.seems so unfamiliar.why?cause my brains have turned into mush.yeah.you should hurt forever.cause i say so.vanessa kang pei shi sucks.but maybe its just the time of the month.
vk
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God doesnt only help those who helps themselves. thats total bull. my God helps everyone,He especially wants His grace and favour to abound in all of us. God helps those who'll rest in Him and trust Him wholeheartedly,like just sits down there, does nothing and waits for God's wonders to manifest. Jesus loves tht kinda child-like faith.

eyy dudes,my bowling season's starting tmr,im super super scaredd. its my first major tournament la. and im gonna be representign my sch. which means ive a part to play in attaining championship.thts crazy!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Oh,the season started on friday alr and sa bowled damn well. the girls especially. okay,for guys individual,this guy from saints got gold,some other guy from rj silver and eugene from ac bronze. but overall ac's second,trailing behind saints. whalao!!!! sa is strong la. so we watched the saints girls bowling,theyre darn strong tooo. Ehhhhh,im damn scared.i really want ac to win champion.i really really really really really really really really want.howww? i want it sooooooooo bad. ireallywannabowlwell. 700series. arghhhhhhhh. God's supernatural favour God's supernatural favour God's supernatural favour God's spernatural favourrrr. Ohh,tmr's also council voting day.ahahahaha. aiyah,im 80%certain i wont get into council,unless God really wants me there la. anyways,thts not a worry.dnt get in dnt get in la. Sigh,im kinda hoping tht i wont get into council cos its really alot alot alot of committment la.i dnt know if im ready. im greedy,i just wanted to join for all the fun.orientation and all. dang.
Eyy dudes,pray for me alright? for God's will to be done whether its council or not. also for bowling. ahhh.
youre shit.just shit. say you'll be there,hug here hug there.smile here smile there. bluff pple. youre never there. just shut up la. dnt even bother saying anythg.really.no one actually hears. we allknow its plain bullshit. so dont even try.
hhahaha. that was mean. but really. i said what i wanted to.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
bbeeebbs
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you guys have no idea how much you all mean to me.
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van your not making any sense.
i miss all of you all too, everyone does.
its not only you,
but life has to go on,
even though i hate for it to go on.
i cannot find people like you all here.
sigh nvm.
looking back is not an option i guess.
we must look forward.
and let God lead us.
i miss you all.
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when it hurts so bad
im sorry.maybe a million sorrys wont work.i dnt understand.i was the one who so openly was reluctant to leave.i seemed like the only one who had problems moving on.letting go.but im numb now.i dno.this feels so wrong.im sorry eunice.for hurting you so bad.im sorry for doing all i did.maybe this seems so insincere.i dno.sorry.im frustrated now.its not tht im not hurting anymore.how can i not be hurting when im crying now?haha.retarded.i miss you guys.i really miss the shit we do.is this getting through?i dnt think so.if only you all cld see me now.hear me talk.not read my thoughts.where are you all?i want you back.all.i want all of us back.but God has His plans for all of us.im not coherent again.ahh whatever.i wish all of u were dead.you know why?cause i hate you all.bye.vk
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i miss you all alot. vj sucks without any st margs girl. im just so lonely now. im in a non-Christian school and i miss devotions and worship time. im going hongkong tomorrow, you girls enjoy yrselves, will get u all smthng. *PROMISE* love you all.
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woooooooooi!!!!!whatever happened to this blog?!you all dnt want ityfamily liao issit?!?!?!??!!?!?im quite high now but its like suddenly.the whole void thing is back again.honestly.for sometime.ive been too caught up with my own life.to say im enjoying it wld be a lie.but to say im not it wld be too.i dno.too many changes.i miss you guys.its like admist my this hihg period now,i feel the whole void thing is back again.i miss you all.i really do.im sad.you know why?cause can you imagine?we all are in singapore and yet we still like tht.so long never see each other.do i have to remind you all im going aust soon.what am i supposed to beg you all to come airport.then i count one two three then all cry together?then some assholes like beebs or celeste will try to do some stupid thing like refuse to cry.then when i go in liao.they'll scream at me.and start crying cause they are just so retarded.i really want to leave.i want to dance full time.its my passion.can you all feel it?i dno.im really loving dance.but i dnt want to leave.why?cause it means tearing me away from you all.where are you all?how are you guys?are you all happy?its been so long you know?so long since we did something stupid.okay next outing.pls everyone wear something comfortable.so can do stupid things easily.its really been too long.can we try to revive this thing?i know we've all got our own blogs.just like how now we are a smaller part of each others lives already.but you cant expect a plant to blossom without watering.yeah thts it.you know how we have plants at home?they are just a small bit in our lives.okay maybe for ple like me its nothing cause i cant be bothered whether they die or not but its not the point here.everyday when our mommies come home.she just waters it.and it grows for her.sunshine tht is vital.is likened to God.He's the absolute must.and He will lead our growth.but we all must do our part.which is damn small.to water it everyday.now dont be stupid asses and say everyday must call each other arr..no.but if you liked you cld.we need to pop into each others lives every now and then.to prevent our friendship from fading into oblivion.it means a hell lot to me you know?maybe you guys dnt hear it so often anymore.but it is.it really is.so can we blog in here?even if its just a little bit.just every now and then.it'd be nice to know you guys are alive and kicking.and in the case of assholes.alive and farting.yeah.i love you all.pls update me.ive got under a yr left here.dance is my beckoning.and im gonna let it sweep me off my feet.and go in whatever direction it brings me.but you guys will alw be home to me.because home means love happiness and wholeness to me.keep me grounded.keep me caring for you all.dnt let me lose my love for you all.dnt ever.so i'll see you guys ard.next outings on gd friday.hope we all can make it.mmuacks! love
vanessa kang
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ahhhhhhhh!
tomorrow's sch day!
i dnt wannnnna go to sch!
the lessons totally suck;
like hell.
sorrrrrrry.
lessons are totally taxing!
but yeah, ac's starting to get a lil better,
at least from my last post.
haha.
had og outing at sentosa yesterday,
and yeah it increased ac life from
1/10 to 1.5/10.
so yeahh, im stilll trusting God to bring it to 10/10!
welll,hope you guys are having so so much fun in sch!
hehehhe.
missing you guys! :)


Bbbbbbbbeeeeeeeeeeeevvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv!


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Hello beebsy beeb...
Oh beebsy beeb, i think.. stuff just isn't the same as it was in smss. I love smss!
Anyway... For me, it's a comfort knowing that smss is just three or five busstops away...
I do love NJ, but it's just not quite enouh coz there's no ity family there. There's no ah min, no beebs, no VK, no eu and no sheeni. In otherwords, there's nothing that i really and truly love, except s&t. And that's not a person anyway!..
Haiz.. somehow. i wish that after we get out o level results, we'll all be in the same school. Don't really matter where, as long as we're together, but it'd be nice if it was NJ. I like it's proximity to smss...
I love u guys!

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HELLLLLO!
we're alllll in different schs now,
and yeah,we should cherish this blog!
its our ityblog!!
ahahaha!

I shalll start.
schs not exactly great.
it ends at 4.30 everyday(SUCKS), except on wed.
and we have lessons after lessons,lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorials!
I HATE IT!!!!!!!!
schs ectremely boringggggggg!
the pple in my class make it worse.
but, thank God for bowling!!!
thts the only thing bout sch i look forward to
(besides my hottie! X)
but then again,i dont see him arnd often!
darn! i dread going to sch!

i used to wanna go to sch during stmargs days
cos of the ityers there.
but what the helllll.
jc life totally sucks major league.
maybe sajc would have been better for me?
i dont know.
im stilll trying to figure out why God opened the door for me into ac
when things arent turning out tht fine..
darn!


bev.






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HAHA good. I AGREE. VIOLENTLY AGREE. Or is it object violently. But you can agree violently too right? Like knod your head so hard! Its weird. Why is english like that? Christmas is tomorrow. I hope every single person out there will one day know the true meaning of Christmas, not treat it as gift-exchanging season or sale period. But finally realise Christmas is all about Jesus' birth. The Purpose-Driven Life is a very good book. My daddy said so but I have yet to bug him for the book. (: We'll go thru it together!

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Hello dudes. it's clau. I am clau clau is me. Nuf said. I am clau ok? And i was thinking, coz i AM going to get all of you the purpose driven life for christmas, that we could read it and go thru it together! Hehe./. coz the bible always says that u must have fellowship with God and other christians right? So there you have it! I propose we do it together!!! Replies?

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Our blog is stagnant! Mei you ren zai post le. SO SAD. Anyways. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

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Everyday I need You its just sometimes I can't see
Everytime I wonder speak to me.
I've searched everywhere nothing satisfies like You,
You're the only one I ever need.
And now I want to tell the world,
That I know You and You are good.
Don't let me get too comfortable,
But share with those who need to hear.

all the best to everyone here!
lovelove. (:
God loves you and me too! (:

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i probably never felt so uncertain abt the future ever before.i guess its cause i never did think of tmr.unless of cause you are asking me to think of food for tmr.but tht is beside the point.i am a whiny thing.seriously.ms siti just had her last lesson with us today.whine!!!!two yrs have come and gone.in terms of chem lessons.whine!!!then i cant terrorisie her anymoe.whine!
i have got nothing to do at all.why?!?!?sometimes i marvel at how pple can make a mountain out of a moehill.i marvel even more at pple who make a moehill out of a mountain.gosh.but i marvel even more at how God can make 5000 fish out of a basket full.not 5000 fish.but more.still.i have no idea how this links to the entire thing but yarh.i marvel at marvelous God who marvels me so therefore i marvel at Him.i am an asshole yes.appreciate it okayy.youve only got tht much time left to do so.i am so sad!!!!!!
vk

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no one really comes here much.so i shall use it to my adv and kinda like air my thoughts.
eunice.trust me.trust us.we didnt hold out with her because of the way she is.i dnt know.i wnt leave you.i promise.it'd work out.somehow someway.i will make it work out.i promise i wont forsake you dudes for anyone else.just dnt let it come to the point where i am forsaken.you will not be my stand- by-just-in-case friend.you wont.this i promise youuuuu..
beebs.the thought of hahahaha cohabiting with you is wayyyyyy tempting.but hahahah i cannot picture how we will be alw stepping on each others tail.but its a fine thought.good for you.i guess we both are caught up in pretty much the same situation.nevermind.we will wait quietly for God's ans kkaes??
ah minn.my dear mummykins.ahahahah.yeapp you wont read this i guess.you hardly pop by.anyways.keep the dream alive okayy?still can shoot for vj one.i know it.i can feel it in my blood.i dnt know what to say to you.you never tell me much.neither have i you.so i shld end this "dedication" with a i love you!!!!!
its the last week.shit it.its not even a week.its 5 more days.i dnt know what to say suddenly.this two yrs seems too short.i wish it'd go on forever.all i can say is.we've walked this two yrs well.lets just finish it with a bang.im gonna miss you bananas.
they say good things dnt last.then i wish with all my heart we are a big bad tihng.so we will last till forever.forever never ends.i am talking shit.i have become a compulsive user of the shit word.howw?
vk

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i am soooooo happy.i got my baby..i cant thank my parents more.i got my E800C!!!!!the samsung slip phone!!!!aww.its only one day old!!!!im loving it and my parents to bits.to bits i say.i wanted to post a pic of it but must download and everything.very mah fun larh..yarh so anyways!!!!i got the phone i still cant believe it.zm!!!quick buy also okay?!!?
yarh.i guess we all think alike.i think we've been inconsiderately making promises tht we might not be able to fulfill.how can we make promises abt the future when the plan lies in the hands of the Lord.im sorry too if i have to break my promise because i just want to follow God's calling.but i will still go with you for first three months.unless things crop up eunice.beebs.its okay.i cant rmb what you said on fri.heh!so i guess i wasnt so bothered as you had perceived.if you have to go then just go.it doesnt make a diff.dont read me wrongly.im not saying i wont miss you.its just tht i dno why.i'll be able to say goodbye to you.i guess its cause of the relationship we share and our states of mind.im not saying our relationsihp is bad or good or etc.im just saying tht the extent of our relationship will enable me to calmly say goodbye without going into a fit of hysterics.aust is definitely weighing heavier on my scale.im really confused now.and im sorry dearies if i have to break my promises.if you cannot understand tht its only cause i want to follow God's calling.then i guess our relationship really is worth nothing.yes we mAY whine and shove each other ard abt leaving.but eventually.wee all have to come to a mutual understanding tht the reason our friendship flourish is God.so do we forsake Him and His calling just to be together??
vk

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BEVERLY WONG. you're driving me up the wall. i dont wanna be separated from you. neither do i want to leave van. i wanna stay foursome forever. i really do. now you wanna go AC, i go AC. if you wanna go SA, i'll go SA (though i doubt my mummy will let). if you go australia, im gonna cry buckets, litres and maybe even an ocean full of tears. knowing the crybaby i am. yeah. i doubt that'll be anything shocking. i dont want you to go. i want you to stay. let God lead the way. Amen.

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its as if im on a bullet train.i wish so hard for time to slow.we've got a mere two weeks left.shit it.im really hating change.im starting to freak out.i never felt like this.psle was like okay.im kmoving off.i guess it was cause i left happy.as in i left unhappy.as in i didnt leave feeling sad.there was nothing tht i wanted to hold on for dear life.i feel likeim being catapult to adulthood.im really fearing growing up.im fearing losing my dearies.ive seen through you,and im hating every single thing i saw.why?why are you the way you are?good ques huh.but im not tht sad anymore.i guess cause the hurt has died down.you aint worth it.im gonna miss recess together.miss terrorising mrs low.miss disturbing ms siti.miss talking back to mr ng.im sad.i pretty darn sad.i pray so hard sometimes tht things dnt ever have to change.tht we cld forever remain.like this.but i know things will.i know i will have to grow up.i'd be forced too.and if i do leave for aust.im gonna be forced doubly hard.sigh.cant anyone hear me?its ending.i dnt know why did i ever let myself grow so attached.i made myself vulnerable.i dnt care if you all dont love me as much as i do you.but.is this just it?!
vk

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purple!!yay!!im writing it small so you cant see it.so pple will have problem reading this.im feeling like a pissifier today.dno.kinda happy.went out again.this few days have been relaxing.really rather relaxing.thts if you count being restless relaxing.come to think of it.i kinda hate how slowly time crawls by.i wish time wld just zipp through like during exams.but then again.we'll zipp through life too slow to stop and what?smell the flowers?i dno.i dno what the hell i talking.i miss God.i really do.my connections missing.feel like ive putHIm on hold too long.sigh.i need to get my piorities right.need to start searching for Him.search search search.it really is no fun.the up down kinda relationships.im really a 3 min hot kinda person.too many times in my life ive been straying.stray stray stray.then now ive got to find my way back on the road to Him.tht road is the step.you see.i guess we kinda forgot tht God is gigantic humungooos largantic biggantic hugantic.well just large.He's an xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxl
dude.so.99 steps for Him.leaving one for us.we need a big big big big car.like a jaguar.anyway.even if God was as small as a microbe.99 huge steps are like "ooh there are 99 steps okay.."in tht kind of upbeat tone.yarh my point being.tht one steps really tough for us but.love helps you through obstacles and i guess.just keep in mind "i love Jesus."you'll do fine.
im really getting all cranked up.i guess im just tired.i'll see you guys soon!!mon!!ahh!!!
I HAVE A SECRET TO TELL JUST READ ON.. hi i am vanessa kang



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ive decided o's or not.life goes on.ballet = no skipping.to keep to this.ive got to pace myself rightt??im so smart.pace myself so i wont have last minute mugging to do.then i wont have to skip my darling ballet lessons.its kinda whats keeping my going.funny.i never loved class like this before.but if its like the night before i'd have to not go.because dnt wana over exert myself.but i still need to take a break for noww.i'd start soon.i promise.
so now im caught at crossroads ballet or to go on with education.i have no idea.i dnt know what to do.need to pray though.
vk

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today was fun!!!!firstly
the movie we caught was the best.i guess the beginning was kinda like phleh but the shows really sweet.its got the right mix larh.the crude parts where the guy cut off fingers and blew a guy up by shoving something up his ass.it was a cool show.the lead guy???in my opinion..husband material.gwaf..yeapp.no he was not good looking.just your average kinda man.but he was the ultimate sweety.really just watch man on fire.i know its not really publicised.but its really a sweet show.just survive the first hour of the show and you'll realise thtits a nice show.its abt this guy whos a bodyguard of this little girl.cause in latin america,at least during tht period(dnt know abt now anymore)there were loads of kidnapping.so yarh.this guy gets hired and the first hours predictable he starts building a relationship with the little missy.then yarh larh!the girl gets kidnapped.and he was shot trying to protect her kinda fatal shot but he survived.AND he goes to the hosp and yaddleyaddleyaddle.he was enraged when he found out they killed little missy.so he caught fire.as in emotionally larh!then yaddleyaddleyadle.he saves her and dies.how come little missy survives?well.the kidnapper's a businessman,and he's a "professional" so yarh.the lead guy is the ultimate mr nice guy.i love him!!!!!!!
yarh.we had sooooooo much funn todayy.neos and stuff.todays the bestest best.rmb.the place outside marche marks the significance of our relationship dudes!!!!love you always zm eunice and beebs.all the wayy alrighty?!?!
vk

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its funny how its gonna be the last few weeks we're ever gonna enjoy each others presnece as a class again and YET yet we are all busy with exams.busy with our future.is this the way we are gonna end this past two wonderful years.i never realised how attached i can be to a class.we have our cliques.we have our own preferences.but we are still a class.somehow.we never failed to pull through as a class.we had the tdd thing 2003 and 2004.we had the dancercise.whether we did it out of enjoyment or out of dutysake.we still did it for the class.i just cant believe tht its the last few eeks and this is how we are gonna end things.it somehow is really disappointing.maybe you say.after the o's we'll get back together for a proper farewell kinda thing.yarh.then tell me how the attendence will be like.it was a nice thought tht we wld all end up in sa for the first three months.tht we wld all have a ball of a time.4/6 ehh???yarh.if we even remain.but then again.bothering with our future is what we have to do i guess.it is the top piority.but just dnt forget tht the rest of the class went through this together.
thats the problem with getting too attached.right?sigh.i just pray tht as we go our parting ways.tht God will shower His blessings upon all of us.hahahahahhahahhahahah.in living memory of 4e6'2004.thts funny.but i guess thts the way its gonna beee....
vk

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HEY DUDES!!
how's everyone in the house??
doing cool?
heh! exams almost over. Almost!
ONe more paper! ONE! hang in there!
HANG! on the clothesline!
Vanessa Kang ah. Chill! :)
yeap.different people are different.
they react differently. they're just different la.!
But some people are the same.
So how do you know whether they are the same or different?
hmmm.good question! very good question.
I knoW! go and ask them whether they're different. then you'll know!!
Woohooo! you'll know! aha!
Sorry la. abit crazzy.IM crazzyyy! woohoooo.
yeah! Ey! anyone interested in going for the American idol concert in singapore??
Call me ya? want my number?
if you want my number.. just call me.
then I'll give you my number!
ROGER that??
BYe dudes!

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IN MY OPINION for the sake of the assuming and the blind..
a person with a small heart equals being over-sensitive.in short.oversnesitivity = smallheartedness.(i wish insenitivity = big heartedness but NO IT DOES NOT)this past week tht practicAlly zoomed by taught me quite abit.everyone is different.yess i know i knew this a long time ago.but this time ard.imtalking in terms of cliques.it really is no wonder why someone in a clique can never fit into another clique.i guess in my small sightedness i kinda thought my clique was the wrld.hence everyone else will be like us or vice versa.so tht means the kinda jokes we tell.the way we talk works everywhere.like a universal formular.but NO.of course it does not.stupid me thought so and therefore stupidly took my approach with almost everyone else.and i got very different results.this brings me to the point.small heartedness = oversensitivity.
see.in my grp.we wld digg at each other.the end result.we wld start shoving each other ard.screaming basically going crazy.but somewhere else.i wld be told off for rubbing it in.in my grp.we do pretty much name-calling.somewhere else.the person will feel offended.the persons will tell me off.really this things dont have to happen esp if you know im really just joking. you cld just smile and possibly start smacking me or smile and tell me to shut up in the same joking manner.in short again.to just tae things in your stride.now im not saying there is no extent to which jokes can be carried out.but if you do open your heart,stop being so sensitive.things wld be all smiles most of the time.for a period, i wanted to change to become like you all.more sensitive towards others.butnow.im turned off ny pple like you.who are too sensitive towards pples feelings and hence are overly sensitive yourself.but now.i hate it.im starting to see the being insensitive in some ways puts you on the plus side.i really thiank God for my grp.i have no idea how i wld be if the wrld was only nade up of pplelike you.but there has to be a balance in everything.i guess thts why we have a spectrum really.

everything in this post is only applicable to a certain extent.and its my opinion.if you still dont understand tht its just my opinion.really.you just are too stupid.too stupid for the wlrd.too stupid for this blog.so if you atill dnt understand it in my opinion.then go away.youre too stupid to understand anything in this blog.really.just plain STUPID.
vk

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Mr S.Lim is one of my favourite teachers for giving devotion. Mr Ng S.F is another.
One of the best devotions ever in my opinion was the one a few days back. The one where Mr Lim in his usual style, went up to the podium and started speaking in his low, soothing yet assertive voice.
First he read from the Bible, then he gave us the meaning of that passage. In the passage it was about someone saying that God is his complete Joy, his joyful joy, his joyous joy.
Then Slim went on to say what i comprehended as what happens doesn't matter, as long as you keep God in your heart, and know that His unconditional and gimongous and hugantic love for you is bigger than anything you can think of. You will know that only God matters, and nothing else is of consequence. And when you think of God you will feel a joyous joy, a real warm fuzzy feeling that never has to go away. If you can truly know and feel and understand that God is so big and big and, er..well big, He will be your joyous joy.
I love slim's devotions, really makes you know that God is there God is here, God is everywhere.
Gonna miss morning devotion when i leave SMSS. Better make the best of them now.

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dingdong a dong a dong a dong a dong...
its been sometime since i last blogged i think..
ballet exams are over.its not exactly phew kinda feeling.in fact i feel no different.im just really missing ballet now cause i skipped class.yesterday was exhausting.i tell you.i am one weird banana asshole.you see when i have the resources to kinda purchase anything i wanted.i was way tired.i had 200 dollars rsh voucher to exhaust and well.i guess it exhausted me instead.i bought two pairs of shoes.one for my wondeful daddy and one for myself.tht added to 160?180.then.i had to find something else to fill in.so i bought a shirt for mommy.40 dollars.just nice right!?!?!?WRONG!at the counter i realised.storewide 25% discount.thanks larh.so i had another 30 bucks to spend.and so jenna and i went round rsh.round and round and round and round.i am positive.my calves were screaming in protest and i was at the brink of collapsing but i sloshed on in my slippers (it didnt really help tht i still had my stockings on frm ballet exam so there was abs no friction btwn my toes and the toe thing tht is supposed to go btwn you toes on your slippers) tripping twice when i finally bought a puma cap which i absolutely adore and a pair of nike socks.then i sloshed to the counter.slosh slosh slosh.when i got there she totalled it up and there was another nine dollars to spare.i really couldnt be bothered anymore afterall i'd rather waste the 9 then later having to suffer for my pathetic legs.so we left rsh.
boy.issit because its free money thts why it is so unfun to by buying things?dno.dnt care.
i really wld love to go on.but i understand tht no one really cares so..yeapp..but i still wana go on so heack!
yeap then we or at least i half sloshed half dragged myself to crystal jade where me and beloved miss victor had a wonderful meal.yarh and i was going on abt how i was going to keep to my diet.but anyway.it was yummy.
you see i am a rather disorganised girl.before all this happened.i cut my hair!!!short.if anybody is gonna say tht theres no difference this time ard.im gonna box the daylights out of tht nanahead.yeap.now i dnt feel like goind on.
my point being.i learned how to share yesterday.i really hate to share esp since its inmaterial.i abs abhor sharing a person.or my closest being.miss victor.but i guess i have to right.though i know one way is to take the parang and run after mr v.i cant.cause i care.i cant stand myself mann.im just so nice and sweet and lovable.sigh.why am i so nice??yarh..ANYWAY.i learned how to share.but miss victor.im only sharing with one other person you comprehend?so dnt try anything stupid.and mr v..i know you'll never read this but dont you ever make ***** *** or else..
yeapp i guess i'll see you guys in less than a weeks time..eep!!!!its prelims next week.got to go.gonna study.dnt wana be the one crying when the results come out.dnt wana be the only one who didnt study like for the bio mids.i tell you.its not a nice feeling.i guess i need not tell anyone.cause noone will not study.if anyone does.the person's just a big liar with bras and panties on fire.
vk

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thank God mann!!!!my titration turned out fine!!!!!!!im like phew!!!!!!thank God.Jesus lives!!!!i love Him!!!!!!!
vk

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sigh.olympics closing ceremony.means another 4 more yrs.wah!!i'll be twenty by then.so old!!!!!i wana be in beijing for the next one.not as a competitor doofus.i marvel at how silly some pple can get.(: i feel so sad for tht russian gymnast.i mean his event was so good.soooooo goooooooooood!!!!but then.in competitions.your medal is in hands of the panel of judges.so sad man!!!!!if i were there i'd prolly have slapped the judges!!!!then did you see the papers???abt the marathon runner.he was leading and then some freaking spectator pushed him.he lost his lead.just 15 mins frm the finish.lost his lead shld still be sec right?but he lost his head too so he ended up third.i wld have baw;ed my eyes out mann.i really admire the competitors and the medalists.i somehow look at them in awe.and also in envy.i mean.you have your entire country rooting for you!!!!!!!!plus representing your country and all.olympics is like the congrgation of the elite man.like hah.we are the members of the elite club.heh heh.i wana go beijing in 4 yrs time!!!!!!!

i screwed physics prac up.focal length 6.3cm.funny arh.i dnt care if anyone screwed it up more.the fact is i screwed mine up and im not happy abt it!!!!!!!!!!!!does tht mean there goes my dream jc????ooh no ooh noo ohnoooo~~
vk
4 more yrs!!!such a long time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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told you you've grown van. don't take what he says to heart. im happy you wrote them the letter. proud that you're willing to take one step back and reflect on what you said, and then act wisely according to it. church yesterday was good. had a 1 1/2 hr worship session! (: ooh yeah!

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yeap,damn right. Can tell that you've grown. Its good, now and then..
All the best for tmr's phy pract! SS mock exam! Bio pract! chem pract!
God help us!
heee =)

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i grew a little today.nope.not in cm.but i grew.i guess.i learnt tht i dnt want to walk away deluded anymore.i want the truth.no matter how much it hurts.i learnt tht i never wana put the blame on anyone else.anything else anymore.theres so much to learn.i learned a little to day.theres so much more to becoming fit.i wana be able to say.this is all i am.this is all i can be.theres no more to it.cause im living it to the fullest.i wana feel as if ive tried the hardest i cld.this is the most i can be.this is the worthiest of who i'll ever be.its a learnign journey.i learned valuable lessons today.true learning is not studying abt lacteals, vessels and what nought.its learning things smaller.but so much deeper.a valuable lesson cannot be taught.it is experienced.and who brings you through the experience God.
its not abt being knowledgable.not abt becoming the smartest man alive.its abt experiencing something deep.and walking away frm it.richer than youve ever been.
vk

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i never knew all i am to you was tht.i guess i thought too highly of you.i guess i never thought you wld be such.what shld i say.i dnt hate you.probably im just disappointed.its not ou im talking abt its you.
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(prays)
please let this conflict resolve.
i pray that you two will get along well.
even though she's changed...
dont let this be a cat fight.
(Amen.)

love you gals!

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prelims are coming.they really are.im scared.i want vjc.i want everything my bro can do.i want to succeed.and i dnt want to fail again.im scared.it hurts to know.i dnt want to be stupid.i want all the ones i can achieve.but i dnt want to fail.i dnt want to be called stupid.i dnt wana screw another national exam.i want 7 a1s.i want it bad.but the way things are looking now.how?!
Dear Lord,i pray for my frens and i tht we will start to work hard.tht we will not neglect you.tht we will not be so foolish as to think tht by sacrificing the time we have wth you we'll gain more time to study.i pray tht all of us will realise the fact tht without you we are nothing.come walk and work in our lives.show us the way.lastly Lord, i pray You teach us to accept Your will.tht we will not complain.Lord instill in us discipline, perseverence, hardworkingness.help us last till the very end.and tht Lord, everything we do will serve to glorify Your name.thank You.Amen.
we must do it together kkaes?!?!?yess!!!!!!!!!!
see you!!!
love you!!!!
byee!!!!
vanadium.

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CONGRATULATIONS DARLINGS!
am so so so so so proud of beverly, vanessa, winny and ah min! of cus celeste too. Beverly, told you everything will be alrite right? okay, so fine. now i owe you a mcflurry. at least i wont put on calories by buying you an ice cream. pics will be up soon in my blog.
VANESSA KANG. i can slap ure face upside down man. like PUH-LEASE. hahaha, you went on and on about how you're gonna get an f10 if possible, but now? a B3 dear. B3! haha. im so proud of you. im glad you studied. im glad you persevered thru the ordeal! God was watching you all along!
AH MIN! oohh. this one im proud of. haha. im not scanning da picture in todae, will do so another dae when im more free and when i can drag the scanner out of the freaking drawer!!! AHHH. im elated. im happy you all did well!
winny hasan, i hate you. for leaving us. hohohoooo. im happy for you that you'll be in a school where it can bring you to where you want to go. miss you lots. reallyyy.
oh. john got B3, distinction. haha. guess i was right. (:

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im back again.so bored.so boring.nothing to do.thts twice in one day.ooh boy.prelims are nearing and yet.and yet.i know its coming but yet.why?where is the discipline?i dno.missing winny
v

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the water works started and it couldnt stop.was raining in the cab.sigh.so sad.feel like a part of mes gone?how chliched.sigh.know the song tht goes if tmr never comes..well.yesterday's tmr never did come.at least the things tht were supposed to happen didnt.i swear im goin have a nervous breakdown.i miss winny hasan.didnt think i'd shed.but yarh.i did.sighh..ooh no..ooh boy..i think im in love..hahahhhahahah..talking shit again.i dnt wana care bout chis results anymore.everythings so uncertaint.how to live with uncertainty???sighh..ooh..DADDY'S BACK!!!!!tripple muacks to my very own daddy.miss him so so so much.yeapp.did i mention i think im in love.you see.love is just a mind game.try this.think over and over again tht your in love with me and you will somehow.its just a mind game for the emotionally wrecked and insecure pple.i dno bout others.somehow.i dnt think love really exists the way we perceive it to be.but thts what makes it nice!!!!okayy.i think im really in love.thts why i keep talking abt love.yuck sick.but the diff is.im one hell of a emotional wreck right?so how deep can the love be??how deep is your love????hahahah.kinda in a singing mood.yupp.theres one thing im sure of.IM IN LOVE WITH JESUS!!!!!!!!He kept my daddy save.He ansed my prayer.because He's a living God!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jesus lives!!!!!amen!!!!!!
v

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ooh no..you know what day it is tmr?ooh boy..i think im gonna faint.im dying.i wish man.ooh no.im whimpering like a dog with its tail between its legs.ooh no.im scared.i really am.its tmr..its really tmr..ooh no..its tmr!!!!can anyone hear me?!?!?!??!?!ITS TMR!!!!!!!!!SHIT SHITshit shit shit.its tmr.i cant believe it.i wish it was before we took our chi os.i wish it at the end of the year.i never felt so so so..apprehensive??i dno if thts the word.ive never in my freaking life felt like this towards exams.towards receiving my results.and its only chi.can you pic me after our os.telling my story to my poor poor poor friends??i guess i dnt wana screw up another national exam.shit.im scared.what if i screwed chi up??huh..how??i am such a whinner.somebody tell me to shut up pls?!?!?!?SHUT UP VANADIUM.SHUT UP!!okay fine i will.see..the results are driving me up the wall.shit.i think im loosing it.how?i think im going insane!!ooh no!!i dnt wanna be tied up in a strait-jacket and get holed up in some stinking asylum!!!i dont wana!!!!!!ooh but strait- jacket's only for pple who might hurt themselves right???ooh then i need not worry, i love myself far too much.but then again.i just dont wana get thrown into an asylum!!!!!ooh no!!!!!!!HOW?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!
V

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todays the 5th.like wow.in abt a weeks time.youre leaviing.i dnt exactly know what im feeling.somehow.i still think your being ur usual stupid self.sigh.results out next week.youre leaving next week.looks like next weeks gonna be glumm huh.sigh.i'll miss you w**** asshole/i really will.i guess.sigh.what am i to say if its the path made out for you?dno.what am i supposed to say.i just hope really really hard i wont cry.i dnt wana cry.i hope nothing makes me cry.not my results.not your leaving.i dnt wana cry ever.gonna fit a cork through my tear ducts.whatever it is.i cannot cry if i pass chinese.if i [pass i cannot allow myself to cry.i cannot be a hypocrite and cry.and fret abt my results.i set it up to Him.so i should leave the baggage there.
"we must not be conscious abt the sins tht we have commited.because then we are doubting the worth of Jesus' blood.His blood cleaned of our sins.and we believe in tht."
if somone says to you."God does not hear me,"ask him to curse God.ask him to hurl vulgarities at Him.what he would reply would be expected."He will be angry,"in all ignorance.have we diminished the Lord in our eyes.do we mean to say.God hears not our cries for help but hears the negative things we say abt Him.have we ?think the next time you wish to say."God hears me not."He is here.He hears.but His plans are not known to men.just as how you would feel if your counterpart has no understanding of what you have discussed and thus because of the misunderstanding accuses you.what do you think the One who provides you with unconditional love would feel.it is unfair to pass judgement over something tht you have no understanding of.hence dont question the Lord and His plans.because you do not understand.
vanadium

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no matter how much of a facade you put up.pple see through it.some take longer than others.but the bottom line is.no matter how marred the division btwn black and white is, grey will never substitute either of them.okay i dno if i am putting the point across to you.but i sure know what im talking abt.
vk
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beebs!!!!!!!!!congrats.whoa.pro larh.physics high flier.but theres something i disagree abt.God wont award you more than you deserve right?at least i dnt think so.so yay!you got what you got based on what you did and most importantly with Jesus behind you!!



when firends are nothing more than bitches.when someone thinks theyre high and mighty.when someone thinks theyre freaking smart.when someone thinks they are something theyre not.its sad to know they live in a wrld of denial.but im not gonna be the one to tell you youre just living your own made up dream.yeap.its your life.live it the way you wana.im not friend enough to do it.at least not for pple like tht.sometimes i wonder.do pple know how disillusionised they are?i dnt know.but i do doubt it.because even if im disillusionised..i wont know.so well.

when pple dnt know when to back of.what do you do.half the time.does mr nasty show up??i dno.

when pple care because they have to.isnt tht all ineffortof lowering your satus.reminding the person youre supposed to care for tht no you dont deserve a single bit of their attention thinking tht you yearn for it and it is their responsibilty to do so.well in all due respect mr anthony.i dnt need you concern.you can just take the mc and carry on marking our attendance.even if you meant you question.even if you asked out of pure concern.thanx but no thanx.your concern means nothing.dont the teachers realise tht they might just be a passing mark in some pupils hearts?are we expected to remain grateful and thankful tht they spent abt an hour or two with us everyday?if youre wondering.the ans is no.half of them only do it because they might face the risk of unemloyment.because its the only job tht'll offer them a pay higher than whatever other jobs they qualify for.if you think they love us.if you think theyre kind and loving pple.you are wrong abt half of them.most of them are hypocrites.living one to many lives.in sch they are the no messing ard kind.friendly.righteous.but out of sch.they live a life tht's disgraceful.you'll never know.some of them might even be gay!!what irony ehh??in sch preaching.lesnianism or gayism(if theres such a wrd) is wrong.but out of sch.they are living it tht way.some pple just have to know where they stand.some pple need others to remind them.im not saying all teachers are like tht.after all.treasures are found buried in dirt.

when friends are nothing but lying sluts.in frnt of you they go on abt how they dnt study.but they tell a chosen few tht theyve mugged their ass off.its hard to tell the truth but its harder to tell a lie.think abt it.organised and discipline pple make the best liars.the best scum bag.the best warped up criminal.to tell a lie.you always need to put in effort to recall and rmb exactly how the lie went.you need to be able to cover one up with another.you need to be able to keep secrets.one "wrong" step in which you tell another the truth will eventually lead to your lies being uncovered.to me.criminals who commit the worst crimes are those who posses good qualities in terms of character.except probably honesty.they posses self discipline.organisation.determination.a strong will.a strong mind.but a person is not judged on his capabilities rather he is judged based on the choices he makes.

think abt it.the next time you decide to lie.think abt all the trouble.all the work youve gotta go through.i hope it'll serve as a turn off for you.
vk
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hey SWEETIES!!
Ive finally got my own blog!
but DONT WORRY! cos this blog is my first home, and the other, my second home!
So i'll be forever faithful to ityfamily!!
yay!go visit one-way-.blogspot.com!!
thats my--- BEEBS' blog!
LOVE all you dudes out there.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTE!!!
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Hey, hang on man. HOld on to that light at the end of the tunnel. Even though it appears tiny now, it'll grow bigger and bigger as you get nearer to it!
Remember that the way to being happy is to find fulfillment in what you do. So even if you loath studying, find a bright spot in that mess, and build on that positive aspect. Soon u'll find that studying ain't that bad after all.. :)
HEH!
Think POSITIVE! It's a medicine that's even better than laughter :)
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im kinda hating everything thts happening right now but im kinda enjoying it.
im banned frm church.till after my os.thts pretty darn long.but i'll wait patiently.heh.im really wondering what im doing right now.with the knowledge tht i flunked most of my papers.i shld be studying now.so tht i wnt get full blast frm daddy when the results get back.in fact this really isnt the time to be wondering abt what in life is worth living for but i never really had a good sense of occasion.i guess by racking my brains abt what life is really abt.i get consolation.cause i sure know life isnt abt studying.in fact.i think theres something wrong with my brain.thts if i actually have much of it.ballet exams coming.and what perfect timing.at the exact time when prelims are im beginning to doubt my sanity.taking on the ballet exam knowing its near/during the prelims.maybe my mother is right.she did take me out of the rubbish chute outside the IMH.boy my schedule is screwed.double the pressure.double the strain on my titsy brain.wonder how much it can take.in fact.im just wondering.how much will my body take.mental and physical strain.whoa.guess what?im feeling demoralise.but i love it.im one strange human being.but knowing tht God'll stand by me and help me.i'll get through.somehow.i mean.even if i get through failing my exams its still considered getting through.you know what??i think im seeing light right at the end of this dark swallowing tunnel.heh heh.
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2nd ATTEMPT: SUCCESSFUL! Ive got the powerrr! 
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hey vank! remember our bruce almighty attempt? yeah, novita in front, vank in middle, bev's head blocked! FIRST ATTEMPT: FAILED 
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Sorry bout that hey there, was sheepishly fooling around with the photo uploader thing.haha. Anyways,its been quite a long time since I blogged, no, not actually. Okay, alot happened during the past week.. yeah, its after the physics paper, thank God it wasnt a killer paper, not like the bio one. Well,the bio paper was not so bad afterall, it was just sickeningly heinous. Kudos to Jeantan, for being the author of that monstrosity. Biotechnology and microorganisms?! Very clever. Alright, enough said, I guess we kinda know how we're gonna fair for the exams,but for now, I'll relish these sweet peaceful moments before the acrid reality of our class positions, etc comes crashing down on us,or rather me! Damn! I really should have studied harder. Come to think of it, I should have studied. What was I doing throughout that 30days of holiday? Bumming around, thats right, I've got a fetish for that. Wake up Beverly! Wake up! Alright, I've set my feet down to reading God's word. At least Im gonna do that after I've finish typing into this intimidating robot. Seriously,computers are intimidating. Getting back to the point, I think we should all start getting back close to God. He's just so so good, no word could measure up and do justice in encompassing God's mercy, grace or glory. He's just so awesome.. Jesus, Jesus, what a beautiful name. Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved. One of my favourite songs:

Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of men
You were here before the world began
Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified, laid behind the stone
You lived to die, rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground

You took the fall and thought of me, above all
God bless.
Beebswong (hehee)
p.s.vank!you'd better come!
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u funny pig. type one HEY.
anyways, i may be doing our new layout some other time.
the many scattered pictures thing's really hard to do.
sorry bev, yeps.
will try doing one super nice one.
okays? have fun and relax over the weekend.
cus on wednesdae? party time begins for like 2 days den ends.
ahhhh. the impending doom - O levels.
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blackout!!!wow!studying under the candle light!!sweeeettt!!!i managed a few pages of bio without getting so peeved at the darkness and shredding my textbook into pieces, burning them al in the effort of releasing stress.in the end. i walked into the examination hall with my blood screaming im gonna fail and high frm the fact tht in my head recides the sparse knowledge of heredity.
have you ever realise tht when you sit down to study, you tend to drift off and when you decide to stop studying since youre terribly unproductive.something in you keeps you seated??i dno.but i feel tht too many a times.like when there was absolutel no light in my estate for abt 2 hrs.i desperately wanted to study.but when light came on again, i thought to myself lets just go to sleep.its too late already.
seriously.today, before the papers started. i knew i was gonna fail. i could feel it in my blood.heh heh.but i managed to get through after all.devotion this morning really helped.it went something like "even in your worst days, God is still with you."i guess maybe right there in the examination hall.God was holding my hand and telling me."even if you fail.I still love you."tht probably got me through.and maybe with God's grace.i will scrape through.not maybe.if its what He thinks i deserve the definitely.i will scrape through.
vk
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hahaha yes beebs, we're in this together.
as of NOW, lets calculate the no. of days before the MIDS. 2
number of hours - 48
number of minutes - 48 x 60
number of seconds (do the math yourself)
im feeling so damn insecure for the exams, its like. i duno if i actually revised enough.
OH PRAISE THE LORD! my daddy bought me 4 christian CDs!
2 hillsongs, 1 WOW worship, and one more other one.
i AM elated. what a vast difference from yesterday night. (:
btw, who won the soccer match!?!
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Chanced upon this from a friend of mine's blog. So true..
life is not just about anything on the surface, but sometimes there are more things deeper inside that matter. sometimes, some pple are just not worth all that time and sometimes we just have to all learn to forget and put aside. sometimes better friendships come out of things like that. we come to learn that small selfish squabbles are so apparent in the real world that sometimes everything just isn't worth it. and i guess, its always better gaining a friend than losing one to one stupid reason. that maybe i expect too much out of certain pple, and that puts them in wayy too tight a spot, that they think that everything they do has to fit my expectations and go according how i want it, sometimes i may seem like i want everything perfect in my life, but i guess, there are many reasons for many things tht we might not neccessarily ever understand, which does suck ultimately, but we get over it.
Cant reiterate more..
Let's seee..
bloody exams are in like what 3more days? okay.. 3, which is 72more hrs,4320mins,259200secs. oh man! okay,a sec has passed, another, another.. damn. exams. guess thats sth we wont be abl to run away from?
All the best to you dearies out there!
Eunice dearie: Rmb what I told you? I will never hurt you. we're in this shit together! and we'll come out stronger than ever!
love ya
--beeevvvvv
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>
>Hi all,
>
>Just wanted to share with you something beautiful which I chanced upon when sufing the
>net. Just wanted to let you know, that God doesn't really place much importance in the
>words we use but rather, our desire to seek Him and to talk to Him.
>
>I encourage all of you to try talking to God. Perhaps you can give it a 5 mins shot. Just
>imagine that He is infront of you and tell him how your day went, what you liked about it
>and what you didn't like about it. I'm sure, as long as your heart is open towards God, He
>will find His place in your lives as well!
>
>Have a blessed week,
>Hazel :o)
>
>Teach Me How to Pray
>
>Author Unknown
>
>Please teach me, Lord...
> I want to know
> Exactly how to pray.
> I need some words
> Which ones are right?
> Please tell me what to say.
>
>I've bowed my head
> I have knelt down,
> But...should I be upright?
> I've closed my eyes,
> I've raised my hands,
> Or...should I fold them tight?
>
>Do I stand up?
> Should I sit down?
> Dear Lord...what do you like?
> Are lights turned on
> Or are they off?
> Maybe...candle light?
>
>Wear my glasses?
> Take them off?
> Be at my desk or table?
> Should I whisper?
> Speak out loud?
> Do I quote the Bible?
>
>What do you think
> About the time?
> Do You prefer the dawn?
> Should I pray fast,
> Or keep it slow?
> Better short...or long?
>
>I'm new at this
> What are the rules?
> I want to do it right.
> How do I know
> You'll even hear
> That I am in Your sight?
>
>And while I sat there quietly,
> Waiting for some sign,
> I heard a gentle voice say,
> "Oh, dearest child of mine...
> Do you think I really care
> About the time of day,
> Or whether you are standing up,
> Or kneeling when you pray?
>
>I don't care about your posture,
> Or about the place you choose;
> Just open up your soul to me,
> I have no other rules.
> Tell me what is in your heart,
> And tell me what you seek;
> Tell me of your sorrows,
> And of those things that made you weak.
>
>Speak to me in private
> About what concerns you most;
> I know about your good deeds...
> You have no need to boast.
> My child, you don't need lessons,
> Just talk to me each day;
> Tell me anything you want, dear child,
> Anyone can pray."
>

vk
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>MessageHere's an interesting conversation with God.....
>
>God: Hello. Did you call me?
>Me: Called you? No, who is this?
>God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
>Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now.
>am
>in the midst of something.
>God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too ...
>Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become
>hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
>God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you
>results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
>Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was
>not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
>God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you
>some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the
>medium
>you are comfortable with.
>Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
>God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it
>complicated.
>Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
>God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.
>You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your
>habit. That's why you are not happy.
>Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
>God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
>Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
>God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
>Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
>God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be
>purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
>With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
>Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
>God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives
>the test first and the lessons afterwards.
>Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we
>be free from problems?
>God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial
>Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle
>and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
>Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where
>we are heading.
>God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
>Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken.
>Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
>Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving
>in the right direction. What should I do?
>God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is
>a
>measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying
>than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work
>with the clock.
>Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
>God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you
>have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
>Me: What surprises you about people?
>God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they
>never ask "Why me". Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but
>few want to be on the side of the truth.
>Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the
>answer.
>God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want
>to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it.
>Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
>Me: How can I get the best out of life?
>God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with
>confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
>Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not
>answered.
>God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
>Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the
>day with a new sense of inspiration.
>God: Well, Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your
>doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a
>problem
>to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. Best
>wishes for a good day.
>
>
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>Joys come from simple and natural things :
>mists over meadows, sunlight on leaves,
>the path of the moon over water.
>
>------------------------ Sigurd F. Olson ----------------------------
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
some more!!!!!!
vk
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PINGU'S BACK!!no ones online.once again.our blog retrns to deep slumber..heh heh.
theres so much to sudy for ss.and i know nuts abt spotting.somebody help me spot!!!!!im not gonna get started untill someone helps me.i mean who can blame me.you oopen the book and a rush of sianness rushes over[who doesnt?then again i shouldnt do assumptions].wrse comes to worse.i'll do it random or whatever ah min calls it.the art of picking up your finger closing you eyes and pointing.beebs!!!!hello!!!your names callable.heh heh.
oohooh..ive got a couple nice emails.
Diane, a young university student, was home for the summer. She had
>gone
>to
> >visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared
>their
> >various experiences of the past year.
> >She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home
>alone.
>She
> >wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few
>blocks
> >away.
> >As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked "God" to
>keep
>her
> >safe from harm and danger.
> >When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she
>decided
> >to take it.
> >However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the
>end
>as
> >though he were waiting for her.
> >She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for "God's" protection.
> >Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped
>around
> >her, she felt as though someone was walking with her.
> >When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man
>and
> >arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper
>that
>a
> >young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes
>after
>she
> >had been there.
> >Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have
>been
> >her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help
>this
> >young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she
>could
> >recognize the man,so she told them her story.
> >The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to
>see if
>
> >she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the
>man
>she
>
> >had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had
>been
> >identified, he immediately broke down and confessed.
> >The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was
>anything
> >they could do for >her.
> >She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious
>as
>to
> >why he had not attacked her.
> >When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't
>alone.
>She
> >had two tall men walking on either side of her."
> >Moral of the story... Don't underestimate the power of Prayer! Gives
>ya
> >goosebumps doesn't it! To all of you who mean something to me, I
>wish
>you
> >happiness.
> >The Candle Of Love, Hope & Friendship

cool ehh?!?!?ive got more but lets just take it slow.
vk
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i distintively rmb you saying to me."i wish you were happy all the time."you probably dnt rmb saying it, but it sounded moronic.but now i want to say it too.i wish you can be happy all the time too.
vk
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The people who really have scars can afford to appear happy.
Because what they have are scars, not open wounds.
There are also two types of people who are funny but hide things..
Those who have accepted and know it's in the past, and those who are lost.
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i was talking to a friend recently and she said tht pple say the loudest pple.the funniest pple at certain functions or occassions are those who have real scars.i dnt think so.i think lets not stereotype pple alrighties?different pple act or behave differently regarding similar situations.
anyway.
sunday is coming.will all my beloveds pls pray i can go to church.i really want to go.i need some spiritual direction.so pls pray for me kkaes?thanx.


i dnt think its i believe in the impossibles right??it should be i believe in Jesus.since he is Lord of everything.including the impossible.
yay!!
vk?yesvk.
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i want a new church too celeste.
aaah. yes happy fathers day jesus! (:
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ACk i need a church.. :X
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Okay. I LOVE going to church. I LOVE God! Church rocks! Yeah, today's sermon was just great, and so many people got saved. Anyways, I'm gonna start reading the bible from scratch. And Im gonna go teenzeal on sat! yay! anyone interested to come? sat, 1to4pm at suntec? its my church's youth service by the way.. Yeah, FOP was great although it was awhile ago, but yeah I wish we could have it as often as possible.. oh yeah.. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, JESUS!! Thankyou for dying on the cross for us, without You we wouldnt be who we are today. because of your grace, glory and mercy, we're free to dance! YAY! okay..
Jesus' blood never fails me
And I believe His blood will never fail you and your family,
So whatever your requests, with prayer and supplication, make it known to God.
The almighty One who never fails.
Cast your cares upon Him for He cares for you.
Remember, you're never never alone.
God is with you always.

How can it be that You are the one, the cross
Lifted for all our shame
How can it be the scars in Your hands, for me
And You are the king of all

And I love You more than life.
I love You, Jesus.
Peace be with you,
Bbbeevvv
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Ahha!! This blog is being R-E-V-I-V-E-D... WE hAVE to keep it alive forevera nd ever and ever OKAY!! :)
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Y-E-S!! Im HERE!! can you see me?? HHHHHEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Good! haha! vank's finally back. where have you been huh? STOP HIDING! COME OUT! okay..
Im going crazy, literally.. Im all alone at home! Gor's at army. Bryan's at some rugby camp in m'sia torturing himself out. Mummy's out shopping. Daddy's working(he's the most hardworking person in our family anyways). Everyone else's studying for mid-yrs except me, still trying to find my game boy.where is it huh? At least 3 of my friends are at church camp.. Where's Dorea, oi! are you back or not? The other people are partying, Im gonna be missing so many b'day parties,not supposed to go out.. Damn,and another friend's having a party tmr not because its her b'day, but because she's bored.. hah,i was laughing my head off. BUT i cant go!! damn.EXAMS.i hate exams! do you hate exams? i think so.. yeah,i cant wait for spiderman2.haha!Im going nuts.. lady dutch?ahahahh. sorry..
byye!
BEEBS(happy?)
wait.. let me see how many names ive accumulated for myself..
some are in cantonese, many are crap ramblings, so wont make any sense.
Beverly(mum), bev(everyone else), beaver(everyone else who thinks its funny but it obviously isnt!),chipmunk(everyone else who thinks its funny but it obviously isnt!), bwong(clau), beebs(maid), beeps(winny), beverbeebs(vank?cant rmb), beebsinogen(vank!),yi gu lai(=sec sis..greatgrandmum),asshole(bro), beef(maid+novita), bumble bee(sunday sch friends from 10yrs ago),bibilan(gor!), know what?alot of disgusting names that im sure if i were to post them, people(YOU KNOW WHO AH??)would start calling me them,so i'll save myself the humiliation =)
found some entertainment.. gdday!
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uhh where did van go? holidae? sorry.
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im bacck!!!!!!muahha muaha muahahaahahahahahahah..so boring.its always me up here tht i thought perhaps i should stop my blogging.so arh.besides my com was down.kkaes.
i love you you you you you you you you you you you you you..(ps.in no particular order.)schstarting soon.damn.im hating the project.today during meeting.i was wondering what the hell am i doing??i mean.its not like the entire thing is scientific or what.its just a bunch of survey forms abt how ignorant pple are abt lymphoma and leukemia.i mean.its not facts.medical facts.and im still doing it.sighh.
beebs!!!!!i felt like shouting your name.can you hear me?!?!?!?!beebs!!!!!BEEBS!!!!YOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV
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I'm all alone. There's no one else out there. I'm losing my mind, temptations, haunting memories, nightmares, what have you. There's no one, all I get is jeering, reproving, chidings,hounding. I've only got myself. I never meant for this to happen, I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry if I never turned out how you wanted me to, if I don't live up to your expectations, if I'm a disgrace. As much as I don't want to, I apologize.
There's no hero, no strength, no love, no hope- Emptiness.
It's a long, bleak, lonely road.
But I believe in the impossible.

Guess I need to say this..
(in no particular order)
Dorea,Vanessa,Eunice,Zhimin,Winny,Brend,Mark,Sheeni,Nicole,Chloe,Celeste,Jerome,Sophia..
Thank you.
For being there and for making me stronger.

Love you guys.
Bev
Man, i feel much better now =)

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this blog has been abandoned! and no one. NO ONE is writing in it.
this is weird. cuz its the holidays. |: ahhh.
when the music fades, all is stripped away
and i simply come. longing just to bring,
something that's of worth, that will bless your heart.
i'll bring you more than a song, for a song in itself,
its not what you have required.
you search much deeper within thru the way thing appear
you're looking into my heart
i'm coming back to the heart of worship,
when its all about you, its all about you, Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things ive made it,
when its all about you, its all about you Jesus..
hope you girls are studying hard. (: cyahs in school.
julianissohot.
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hoping beyong hopes. dashed. it isnt fair that i go through all this. but if the world was fair, what would heaven be??
vank
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given up.chineses sucks.fail larh.dammit.fustrated.
whatever.im just stupid.i know.thank you so much for telling me you expect less of me than u expect of him.if you thought tht helped eased the pressure,you didnt,u just made me feel stupid in your eyes.i study for no one else except for God and myself.i dont study to fulfill you wishes and hopes.keep them for him.hes smarter.period.besides.its not as if youre anyone who matters.damn.
chinese sucks.PERIOD.
VKCUFKANG
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and i know that youre just shining down on me from heaven.
(:
GOOD LUCK FOR CHINESE Os!
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could u all please please please pray for my dog.it hurt its leg.pray tht it regains its mobility please??im really desperate.thank you.
v
please.
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rmb,mrs lee had high hopes on our class and this yrs graduating cohort.
we wont disappoint her.
We'll break the 30-barrier and do her proud.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY
bw.
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thankyou for all that you've tried to change.
thankyou for loving us so much.
Thankyou mrslee.
Thankyou.
I love you always.
bw
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youre the most ive ever seen.
v
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i sat in the center.in full view of her face.so familiar.so blurr.i couldnt cry.i didnt know why.i know in there lies her.i know shes gone.but .how am i to say this.i guess the greatest comfort comes frm the Lord and His words.
1 thessalonians 4:14
we believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in Him.
how appropriate.the Lord is wise. i left angry.with what i dont know.my anger had no direction.i felt lost.i still dont accept that Mrs Lee is gone.perhaps we'll see her soon.
i feel like such a brat.so many thoughts.sinful.how would they know where.destination.can they be sure.the Judge is Him and Him only.so how would they know.of course i hope just as much.but are we right to assume.perhaps tht is the only thing tht they seek comfort frm tht can be spelled out.i dont know.it doesnt work for me.but in Him i seek my comfort.perhaps we are right to assume.i wish we are.really.
it seems so cheesy to say it.it seems so insincere.perhaps i shant spell it out.but Mrs Lee.see you soon.
v
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THe thought is that on wednesday at assembly, Mrs lee is going to come up on stage again and say "did you miss me?".
It's still there in my mind, that mrs lee has just gone on a very long course, or is overseas at some St. Margaret's international meeting.
Remember the times we called her Bulldog. "Bulldog is outside walking around". "bulldog is there! Quick pull up your socks".
Just last monday she stood at our classroom door during the comprehension exam, Watching us and making sure we weren't sleeping...
Everyday, EVERYDAY, we must remember to think about something that happened yesterday which made you happy.
We know that mrs lee is not coming back again, but how many can accept that fact. How many have already felt deep down in their hearts and accepted that mrs lee is gone? Many are still trapped at that first stage of mourning, Denial. Can't cry, can't think, lost, empty, sad...
God,
thank You for having put Mrs Lee on this earth, and Lord, i pray that now she is with You, in peace.
She did great things on earth Lord, and all she did for us in st. margarets really glorified You Lord.. Even though sometimes we didn't understand what she was doing, it was all for our good. Lord, we'll miss everythign about her. Her speeches, her prayers, even her x-ray eyes. She can never be replaced in our hearts, but thank You lord, for having let us know her for this time.
IN the name of Jesus i pray, Amen.
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Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king above the flood
I will be still and know You are God.

it all happened so sudden. it was like just yesterday when she was weighing herself . Why? Why such a wonderful woman of God? why such a good principal who has changed many lives, who cared for every single one of us. so painful, this feeling is horrible. i just feel so lost, so empty, so sad.

mrs lee, you'll remain in our hearts always. you're greatly remembered and dearly loved. We miss you so much.

"Think about something that happened yesterday which made you happy"
I'll think of all that mrs lee has done selflessly for the school.

But I take comfort that mrslee is now in Heaven, with God.
She had pinned her hopes on 4/6 to perform well for the Os.
We cant disappoint her, and we wont.

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exclaims:WHOA!!!!!COBWEBS!!!!!*sweeps*..
its been long since ive blogged..tmr two papers.chem and ss..i finished chem..at least i think i have..the last few chapts..abit blur..but who shits??ss haven touch.*still sweeping*i definitely broke record mann..finish chem in what??3.5 days..hahahah.i broke my record.of course im sure many others dont study larh..its four more days to th eexam and they still havent started yet..write in the organiser by when finish but still never start larh..i believe..really..yarh larh.they smart what..i not..so yarh larh..*by the way im still sweeping*ss..sigh..how??i will pia..ss.uck.
ohh.impt..
all smss-ians:tmr 7 am prayer meeting.at the study are(behind canteen).doesnt matter if you re a believer or not..so long as you genuinely care.


sweeping-to be continued.
v
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*agrees* haha. its over. (: im gonna be strong.
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"let the experience of others be your lesson"..yupp..ive learnt one thing alrighty..bglove sucks.entirely.frm top to toe.inside out left to right.ullk..



you said shut up.and thts what im going to do frm now on.for probably.forever.
v
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ahaha.mid-years.mid-years.they're in a weeks time? oh,thanks for the kind reminder.. yeah.i enjoyed myself too on fri,the food was good.it was funny la,how we each tool a bite from our own cake, then rotated it ard the table. later during tuition, i had a real good laugh,couldnt stop laughing..it was so so funny,ridiculously hilarious. My friend wore this really huge shirt with this cartoon-like cat print on it, and i dared her to kinda like raise her shirt and do a "meow"sound to this rather innocent guy.. trust me, it was so damn funny. ahahahah.the guy's reaction basically defined the word 'embarassed', can you imagine how an embarassed guy looks like? haha. oh,this reminds me, i wanna make an apology. i know ive been saying some stuff to some ppl, you guys know who you are.. i might have irritated you guys on certain things, im sorry ive been rather selfish and sensitive. yea,it was dumb. anyway, i was at tuition earlier and my bro goes to the same centre as me too, but at diff timings. so i was in class, then when i peered out, i saw this guy, young, tall,macho, tan, sporty, handsome, at the counter. this guy mesmerised me, my first impression and thoughts of him were that off handsome, charming, macho.. soonafter, it dawned upon me that the guy looked very familiar, like ive seen him before. Then i realised that he actually was my brother. Man, i was so.. dumb. i seriously couldnt recognise him for like 2-3secs.. hmm, i realised that my younger baby brother has grown alot, matured. He's really charming now and he's much taller than me already!! argh. anyhow, ive just returned home from my grand-auntys birthday party. I must say that ive never actually realised that ive got pretty damn much relatives. they're uncountable. the numbers are still growing. cos i got to my cousins house kinda late, so when i arrived there, i was totally shocked by the no of shoes at the garage.. it practically flooded the entire place. Not to mention that when i got it, i really didnt know where to start greeting all the uncles and aunties.. they were like, everywhere. Soon i realised that i actually had a lot of cousins, ranging from 25yrs to 1yr.. it never occured to me that i had tons of cousins, so many of which are planted all over the world.. hk,syd,melbourne,perth,florida,nyc..everywhere. i had a blast today,dinner was great. i got to eat gado gado, finally. but the catered one wasnt as good as winnys. winnys one's the best!! dude,rmb our deal?better! anyhow, i had a blast, as ive already mentioned.. and it was funny la. all the cousins. being surrounded by intellectual and intelligent ppl, old and young, they all intimidated me.. lawyers,doctors,professors, what have you.. sigh,ive got this cousin. Ive got to admit i dont really know him. he's very quiet, very. Although it was his house we were at,he just stood at one corner all the while, with no one to talk to. I dont know, he's probably a loner, but yeah. he's in j2, we noticed each other quite afew times, tsk, dont know how to say la. going on, His bro is a really nice guy,kenneth. very friendly,outgoing,well-mannered,charming,intelligent,blah blah. and his girlfriend is really pretty, very sweet.. he's 25 by the way. and i just killed a beatle with my bare fingers, yucks. didnt realise that it was so wet. sorry,i know this is so lengthy, im trying to make up for my absence these past few days.. this post has been filled with loads of irrelevant stuff and horrible english, dont mind me.. gotta go. its like 1am now. didnt realise. bye. bev.
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i finally figured.midyrs are in a weeks time thts why no ones coming online.like D U H.what took me so long.
v
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this is what happens..when you have two tests tmr..you only study one and neglect the other..and chiong online..to find yourself alone online..how nice..perfecto..ehh people..blogg leh..you al are boring the daylight outta me..i come online..bloghopp..and when i finally hopped to our blog..guess what..i pretend im not vk..i pretend ive never been here before..and i read my own entry and marvel at vk..hahahahah very funny..im really laughing..i find myself stupendously funny..and rightt..you all needed to know tht..
why do i find mself stuck???like theres no space left for advancement??im stuck..stuck in the mud..but mud aint sticky..whats sticky??ooh blue tac!!but stuck in a lump of blue tac???errr..lets see..what else is sticky??im having a brain blockk..sticky..what else is sticky??hmmn..did the word stick give rise to the word sticky??but sticks arnt sticky..are they??i dont think so right??but sticky is like stick_y..or maybe there once was a stick named sticky and it was sticky unlike the other unsticky sticks..and therefore they decided it was special and decided tht just as a form of 'tribute' they used the wrd sticky which now can be found in the oxford dictionary..it means..tending or intended to stick or adhere;glutinous,viscous;(of weather)humid.but then again..maybe the word sticky really did arise frm the wrd stick..since another meaning for stick isnt the long continuous thing..but rather..stick like stuck..like..unable to get rid of..but i hink stick as in the stick up ur ass came before stick as in stuck..ooh..i wonder..if a stick of a tree..(i know its referred to as branch)dies..then wont it be referred to as the stuck of the tree???right??since stuck is the past tense of stick and the stick used to be alive be then died..so it is now a stuck..rightto..im making perfect sense and all this gibberish came abt because i was trying to figure what was sticky..i certainly amuse myself..not you but myself..
wasnt this supposed to be a Christ powered blogg??then why did sticks surface??hmmn..i dno......
ahh..Jesus rules..He really does..He really really does..really..i dnt know how else to convince you all..(those who need convincing)..i guess the only way is to allow yourself to be convinced by His great work and to allow yourself..youve gotta be open minded..not narrow minded(like stick-width-minded)..
i have one question..if you dont believe then..how will yo see when your view is hidden beneath the blinds of your eyes???i guess its just the marvels of God..so lets just pray tht God removes the veils frem you eyes..clears the logic frm your brain..and in all innocence and simple mindedness..lets submit ourselves to Him..yeapp..lets do it..(nike just do it)..i found out today during ss class..linking is funn..i know its rather evident in this post however ridiculous are the stuff i link to..you cant deny..a links a link..so yay!!
macho v
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i want to be a guy..no not tht the opposite gender means smarter blabblabblab..but..i dnt like gu niangfied grils..eeeeyyyyyeeewww!!!!!!!!!i wana be a guy girll..no not a guys grurl okayy tht was the ultimate yuck..but a guy girll..no not bung either..stop shoving your gu niangfied ass in my face..no thankew..i dnt want no pretty plaits..pretty dresses and the not so pretty gu niangfied behaviour..yuckk..being gu niangfied simply means believing tht yes..i am weaker than guys..urgh!!!!doesnt mean being a girl means no playing in the mud..slogging it out under the hot hot sunn..fist fighting..wrestling..no it doesnt mean tht..being gu niang is..and aiyoooooyouareso gu niangfied..

im my own superhero..trust me..i can fly..

ive not fallen..i did not fall..i did not trip..all tht happened was i had to walk harder.dno if thts the rightt word..
i dnt need sympathy..i dont need compassion..i dont need love..unlessyoure talking abt God's and family love..all i need is my own space..to preserve myself..(we need some styrofoam here)

i think im turning anti gu niangs and anti egoistic jackasses(most of the time..the opposite gender)and yes..i may seem contradictory here..but all i am trying is to find myself..somewhere not near the gu niangs and the egoistic bastards..

since im ur fren..pls dnt treat me as though i need help with my fragile frame cause im a girl..i am as much a guy as you..and i deserve much more than..*ooh no carefull..its too heavy for her..ooh no carefull..u might hurt her*at the very least treat me as an equal???i dnt need ur stinking disdain..

i just want to be a guy girl..
v

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