I've got a question..
What is fate?
please enlighten me.
desperate.
B
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, November 30, 2003
okay.
vanessa.
i'll attempt to answer your questions, of course, with the help of my mum, & the help of God.
it's kinda late now & i've gotta wake up early tmr for my work attatchment, so I'll make this a quick one.
firstly,
it's stated in the Bible that those Christians who have died will be risen up from the grave in a whole new body during the rapture.. and no, those non-christians who are dead will be sent to hell(they already are in hell).. I mean God already gave them a whole what,80yrs to chose.. but they didnt see God..
secondly,
yes, those who dont believe in God will not go to heaven, and will go to hell. yeah, there will be many who will be going to hell.. yes, it's sad that there'll be alot of ppl who will be going to hell.. God said:
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John3:16
If you believe in God and make Him your Lord and God, you'll have everlasting life-- go to heaven.
you know, my pastor once talked about this classifying ppl thing.. that people will always want to find out what denomination you are in. that's human nature for you. people always like to put people in a box and classify them.. so many a times, people would wanna find out which denomination u are in, they'll keep trying to find out, then they'll be satisfied.. many of the people are like that..
actually, why would someone(esp.a Christian) be afraid of dying if he knows that he'll be going to heaven.
think about it.. gotta go. bye guys.
Dear God, may my soul and all of my loved ones including those people who'll be reading our blog find rest in You, Christ alone.
Amen.
beverly
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, November 30, 2003
You say: It's impossible
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: I'm too tired
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: Nobody really loves me
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)
You say: I can't go on
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms91:15)
You say: I can't figure things out
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: I can't do it
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: I'm not able
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: It's not worth it
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: I can't forgive myself
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: I can't manage
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: I'm afraid
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: I'm always worried and frustrated
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: I don't have enough faith
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)
You say: I'm not smart enough
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: I feel all alone
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)
meaningful right!?
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, November 30, 2003
okayy..
xoxoxo jus asked me this ques..so i wana hear wad u have to say abt it..here goes..
'will all the buddhist and musilms and all the other religons go to hell when they die??if yes..then wont there be alot who go to hell??'
to xoxo..personally..i think yes..they will all go to hell[ok this sounds alot like im cursing them but no]it is said..'only those who believe in Me will GO TO HEAVEN.."ANYWAYS..I THINK some where in the bible it says only the chosen will be brot to heaven..i think tht part of our duty here on earth is to evangilise..yarh??thts my opinion abt the ques..can u all give ur opinions abt it??ohh..ive got another ques..will those who die before the rapture be risen frm the dead to go through the rapture so tht they'll have another chance..??okayy..i kno most prob its no but why??pls help me and xoxoxo here..thanks..so this are the ques..
will those who die before the rapture be risen frm the dead to go through the rapture so tht they'll have another chance..??
'will all the buddhist and musilms and all the other religons go to hell when they die??if yes..then wont there be alot who go to hell??'
thanks..
veeeeeeeeekAyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, November 30, 2003
helloooooo..
okay..i dno why but im not feeling zonked..
last night or rather this morn..the wee hours of the day was spend chatting..yesyess..chatting..we chatted away yesterday right into today ignoring the fact tht it was 3.15 a.m. in the morn..
u see..i was yakking on the fone with jenna..my ballet fren..yarh..but if u were to listen to our conv..u wont term it yakking..rather intellectual chatter..yes..of cos..it came frm me..okay anyway..we were talking alot abt Christ..and we did do some comparing btwn my faith..a plain christian..and jenna's faith..a catholic..okayy..actually..i dont see the point of names like anglican and all..i mean they are jus different names for different grps of pple who i guess interprete the bible differently..if u were to ask me..i would say..i have a relationship with Jesus..yes thts how im going to term it..i mean..if u want to argue abt contextual and stuff..go ahead..doesnt bother me..but i think christians should stand united since our common goal is getting to kno Christ and accepting Him..i think tht is the common goal right??i dnno..but thts wad i get when i read the bible..so yes..im jus a girl who believes in Jesus and wants to lay my life down for Him..if u were to ask for my faith..i would say it rests in the arms of my Saviour and tht becos in the bible it is stated as 'christians'.so im a christian..general term yes..i dno if im making any sense to u but to me..im making PURRRR--fect sense..
okayy anyways bac to the intellectual chatter..
u kno jenna??i think God spoke to me through u las night..u knoabt all the prob i have been having abt the die-ing and stuff??yarh..let me quote this particular sentence jenna said:
"if u realise the fact and believe tht u will have eternal life if u believe in Jesus..then why are u afraid of die-ing.."this might not have been the actual words but it ran along the lines..u see..now i realise..die-ing a mortal life is jus aproccess..after which im confident tht i'll go to heaven since God made the promise..tht all who belive in Him will not die but have eternal life..amen man~amenn~u see..i knew eternal life since ages..but i never seen it this way..i guess through Jenna..God has enlightened me..thank You mann..yesyes..
okay..during the intellectual chatter..lets call it I.C since its really long to type..jenna mentioned this.."but some pple think tht just bcos they belive in Christ..they jus continue sinning.."i din give this reply tht im going to give now..i think..if genuinely..u love Jesus..[which is wad God wants]u will want to do good..and not sin bcos He has said tht he hates the sin but loves the sinners..now if ure gona rebute me like wad happened to me and bev in the canteen with one other fren abt a certain statement abt God loving liars and hating the lies..all ive to say tht all uve understood frm my entry is the superficial..u take things too literally..yesyes..so i urge tht if u have any opinions abt wad we say in this blog..pls clarify with us..this way..it'd be a win-win situation..both of us will stand to gain both the chalenger and us[the-pple-who-own-the-blog] will learn somethg new..okayy??so my main message today is this..
"if geniunely u love Jesus..u will not want to sin"i repeat WANT..
okayy this is a bible verse tht jenna read to me yesterday bcos i had the lights off and cudnt read the bible..its along this lines..
"it is the sin in us tht makes us sin..it is not in my nature.."
okay i cant really rmb wad its like but this is my summary..
"God made each and everyone of us perfect..but becos our forefathers[adam and eve]fell for satans trick tht made us imperfect.."i'll go check the verse out..
its in roman 7..jus read it..
basically its this..
'for the good tht i would i do not:but the evil which i would not, tht i do
now if i do tht i would not, it is no more i tht do it, but the sin tht dwelleth in me.'
okayy..another verse tht compliments my statement abt not doing bad for u love Jesus..
[ncv]"so do u think tht we should continue to sin so tht God will give us more grace?no!we died to our old sinful lives.so how can we continue living with sin?did u forget tht all of us bcome part of Christ when we were baptized?we share his death in our , baptizm.so when we were baptized ,we were buried with Christ and shared His death.we were buried with Him so we could live a new life, just as Christ by the wonderful power of the Father."romans 6:1-4
vaness kang pei shi.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, November 30, 2003
okayy..basically..this is wad we are debating abt..maybe we have not stated clearly..
wad we are debating abt is abt tmr coming..issit a chance frm God??a promise God made??or a gift frm God??
so bottomline..
issit a chance/promise/gift given by/made by/from God..
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
my statement:tmrs a chance..not a promise..bcos if not..no one will die..abt the gift thing..i see tmr as a chance..and the chance is a GIFT frm God..thts my acknowledement..
p.s i encourage u to look at the general picture..not the immediate tmr..
vankang..
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
beverly's statement: that tmr is a promise first, that's provided you are a faithful Christian who loves God because God stated in the bible that with long life He'll satisfy us, so we'll live to see more tomorrows. but when you're around a ripe old age and your duty on earth is already done.. tmr will be a gift because God can take you home anytime..
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
okayy..me and bev still cannot come up with an agreement..both parties are equally strong on their statements..sooooooo..u can either choose to debate with bev over her statement or with me over my statement..
van kang
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
if you dont know what van and i are debating about..
here's the question..
would u say that tomorrow is a
a) chance
b)promise
c)gift
.. pls tell us your answer by tagging on our board, and state your reasons to..
thanks..
thinnking
wong.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
okay.. vanessa, i'd kindly take up your challenge..
firstly,
God said that with long life He'll satisfy us, which means that we'll see many tomorrows.
that's if we obey His word..
But,
if we're talking about me being a 90yr old Grandma whose duty on earth is already done..
okay, then I'll say that tomorrow will be a gift.
still available..
be
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
if tmr is a promise..thenn noone will die..anyone wana challenge my statement??come right on..if u can prove me wrong then yay!!i'll learn smethg..
hehees
van kang.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
so we're seeing chance as a gift..
okay..
but what if i dont see the chance as a gift?
i'm confused now..
nevermind
God.. you said that You'd be my teacher..
teach me!
be
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
chance as in a gift frm God??????
get it???
vannnnnnn............
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
i think that tomorrow is a gift and not a chance..
i stand to be corrected..
let's discuss bout it!
wong beverly
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
guys, eunice and I were thinking bout changing our blog address.. YOU, who are reading our blog. Yes, we are letting you suggest names for our blog address.. and if the three of us(van, eunice & bev) agree on your proposed name, you'll stand to win a wonderful prize, which will not be disclosed and will come as a surprise!(dont worry, they're very attractive).. So start giving us suggestions by tagging on our tag board! God bless!!
..love always..
bev
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
okayy..tht was wad happened..but the most impt point is tht i was saved because Jesus was there..
i dno why i say Jesus was there..im not sure of it..but i just think it is the cause..i mean its not everyday a lamp post falls..somemore on ur bus..okayy..yesyes..and i think lucky the tree fell..if not..the lamp post would have done worse damage..i mean..i guess it cushioned the fall??yarh..
u kno actually theres a point i din add??its tht after the incident..i thought..i mus tell as many pple as possible to thank God tht im alive..if u actually understand wad i mean..its not tht i have a whole load of ego..its more of thanking God for His miricle??yesyess..its like u see..if my saviour was not Jesus..then..i mean my life would be like without insurance..it will be like me walking ard with danger surrounding me without protection..do u understand wad i mean??bcos im not sure tht im expressing myself properly..ohh another point i forgot..i think another thg is equally vital..on the bus..i was accompanied with my sisters in Christ..i mean..the womann on my left??yess..and after i alighted..i saw a ah ma wearing a cross..it might not mean anythg but ah mas dont wear thgs for fashion sake right??anyways..i kno tht somethg like tht exist but i dno the exact way its phrase in the bible..u will be protected if u are surrounded by pple who have Christ in them..i think tht the fact tht there were christians in the bus also played a part..'God will never forsake HIs children..'so yarh..
see i told ya tht 'tmr is a chance not a promise..'
thank God mann..from the bottom of my heart..THANK YOU JESUS..
gratefulness fills my soul as i look unto the LOrd..
vankang.................
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
okay.. that was a really close shave.. and thanks for all the wonderful suspense.. Eunice and I were brainstorming in Long John's about what could possibly have happened to you. Yes, we came out with alot of things.. haha.
Praise God
God is good..
beverly
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
MY BRUSH WITH DEATH
it started out with normality..[yesyess..cliche..i kno..but its the truth..]morning breezed by..after the lymphoma meet up..zhi min and myself walked to the busstop..never did i expect tht zhi min would have been the last to see me alive..or uninjured..[drama mama..]
i boarded my bus..93..the ride when smooth..i was seated comfortably at the rear with my 8 days in hand..the woman to my right passed off with a tinge of irritation..i shifted my siting position as she came and took the seat to my left..after awhile..i became oblivious to the surrounding as i became engrossed with my mag..
the serenity broke jus as the bus uncle took off frm the busstop after the one at mac reservior..as the shattering of glass rang through the air..tree branchs started to stick in at every open window..halve in fear and the other halve still doubting wad my eyes were revealing..soon the loud sounds stopped..i turn ard to look..wad i saw threw me back into reality..a lamp post broken stacked on top of a fallen tree..in my heart..i muttered 'thank God..thank God..'as we all stared in awe..the lady on my left exclaimed..'thank God'...softly i whispered yes thank God..i returned my gaze to the uphevelled roots and the broken lamp post and sat there refusing wad had jus happened..now i can only imagine the horror tht could have been unleashed..the lamp post lay less the a metre away..meaning if Jesus had not been there..i guess i most probably wont even be typing here..
as i claimed my complimentary ticket and started on my way towards the nxt bus stop..my mind was still blanked out..i boarded the nxt bus and soon was on my way home..thinking to myself..i must blogg this down..so here i am..telling u the story of my very brief brush with death..
van kang atill alive and kickinggggggggggggg..........
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 29, 2003
i dont kno how this is gona be interpreted by u bwong..but yarh..i dont mean anything harsh..mmmmmhhmmmnn..actually..i dno why i posted tht post..perhaps i shud delete it..i dno..but honestly..i never wanted any comments to be made abt it..i guess..i really shudnt have posted it there..knoing tht u all being my frens will talk to me abt it..bcos u care..but perhaps..right now..tht isnt wad i really want..perhaps..i dno..if this entry's gona hurt u bcos its misinterpreted..then im sorry for being such a jerk..im sorry for stirring up all this mess..but i'll pray to God tht u'll understand..perhaps its understanding tht i ask for from u all..but then again..when i myself dont kno how to present my feelings..i really am asking too much..yes bwong..uve got it right..my daddy loves me alot..his love for me is tht vast..but of cos the love Jesus provides is much much much more..i dno..but i guess not everyone is as fortunate as me..look at the no of children in the wrld..abandoned the moment they were born..the no of children whos parents are dead..the no of them tht have parents divorced..i kno im truly blessed..and perhaps..God put this love in my father so tht our relationship will be so strong..as i reciprocate his love..it makes me want more than ever to convert him..it is all planned out by Jesus..and all i can do is guess wads the reason for it all..but dont let me play god..just let me enjoy the blessings He has bestowed unto me..yes..i really truly thank God for everything wonderful [and the not so wonderful things] tht has happened to me..u too..bwong..u are a wonderful happening to me..yay!!so pls..i hopetht u can understand..perhaps i really shud delete tht post..i dno..
on another lighter note..hello to all tht has visited our bloggy..i really hope tht through us..God can work wonders and stirr the passion tht shud have been there..because..all our love belongs to our heavenly Father..as He has already said.."love Me before all other things" God bless u all mann~~
okayy..
lets dwell on the situation bwong has posted to us..
if someone held a gun in ur face..and asked..DO YOU BELIEVE IN JESUS??wad wud u say..
so yes..all of us who read the bible..kno tht this day will come..it is stated in revalations tht satan..will roam the earth..and seven bowls of God's anger willcause turmoil in our country..as the anti-christ rises in present times..wad are u doing as a follower of Christ..would u stare death in the face and say..Jesus is my Lord and Saviour..or will u chicken..just to exchange for a short period of life living in guilt so overwhelming tht u wished u were killed on tht day..remember..everthing on earth tht we posess is on loan..we live in borrowed times..tmr is a chance not a promise..if Jesus had not died on the cross to save us frm our sins..tmr would never have come..yesterday would never have happened..i dont think im a very holy person..honestly..im no holy poly..no holy pumpkin..to tell u the truth..i used to be so sure tht if a gun was put to my head..my ans will still be a yes..after some time..i slowly started saying..im sure tht i will say tht..but im not sure i'll do it..and then now..im afraid..im a chicken..the Lord once said.."he who is ashamed of Me..I too will be ashamed of him..and before My Father..I will deny him.."ive had dreams..before..and just because i dreamt..i already am full of guilt..in my dream i was placed in the similar situation posted..and i said..'perhaps'..wad a stupid ans u would say..but i guess..it was out of fear tht i din want to say i was a follower and out of not wanting to be denied by my Maker tht i wanted to say yes..so when u put it together..u get 'perhaps'..and because of tht dream i was haunted by my ans for the nxt few days..im glad it din happen..at least i still have another chance to redeem myself..some say my faith is growing the Lord..but i think otherwise..if it is..then i should be more and more confident tht i would say yes..but i am not..
at the end of the day..i have no idea wad message im trying to send to all of u out there..maybe its tht im a chicken whom my Lord is ashamed off..but this blogg isnt abt me..its abt God..so maybe..i just want to probe u all..wad would u say??if ur life is at the end of the line..if yes..then really..God bless u..im not saying tht if ure unsure..then ure dead meat..because..theres still time..though limited..work on it okayy??just as i'll be working towards it too..lets just say..God have mercy..help us poor souls..amen..
vankanggggggggggggggggggggggg.....
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
hey guys, i changed some stuff.. try finding out what's new on this blog.. have fun!
bwong forever
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
okay, maybe i misinterpreted what you were saying bout your dad. sorry bout it dude, why dont you try sitting him down some day and talking to him bout all this? ..dont know, just a suggestion.
I got this e-mail from one of my friends and I'm sure u guys must have received it.. but anyhow, here goes..
GOD
IF SOMEONE HAD A GUN HELD IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE AND ASKED YOU IF YOU BELIEVED IN GOD, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? SAY NO AND FEEL ASHAMED THE REST OF YOUR LIFE? OR SAY YES, I DO, AND DIE STANDING UP FOR GOD?
Note: This is a true article that was printed in a southern newspaper less than a year ago
TAKE A DEEP BREATH BEFORE READING THIS
There was an atheist couple who had a child. The couple never told their daughter anything about the Lord. One night when the little girl was 5 years old, the parents fought with each other and the Dad shot the Mom, right in front of the child. Then, the dad shot himself! The little girl watched it all. She then was sent to a foster home. The foster mother was a Christian and took the child to church. On the first day of Sunday School, the foster mother told the teacher that the girl had never heard of Jesus, and to have patience with her. The teacher held up a picture of Jesus and said, "Does anyone know who this is?" The little girl said, "I do, that's the man who was holding me the night my parents died."
Funny, isn't it?
Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.
Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.
Funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. (Or is it scary?)
Funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also "believes" in God).
Funny how you can send a thousand 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.
Funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace.
Funny how someone can be so fired up for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week. (Are you laughing?)
Funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me. (Are you thinking?)
..yeah, i find it really true. esp that part about believing everything that's written on the newspapers by a human, and yet doubting the promises that God stated in the bible, written by God himself, the king of all kings and the Lord of all Lords..
think about it..
Romans 10:9, "If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead you shall be saved."
..please visit this website www.bible.com, they have everything regarding the Christian faith.. we shall confess with our mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe bout it.. yea, we are saved.
God's faithful servant..
beverly wong
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
to set thgs str8..i dont hate..blame my father..noones perfect and i perfectly comprehend tht..yay!!GOd rules my wrld..
veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeee-ing off...............
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
yeah, this blog rocks. vanessa, you proposed about making this blog open to the public, if Eunice agrees, then i have no objections, but I would wanna erase one of the entries tt i posted. just dont feel comfortable letting others read. haha. okay, now eunice.. thanks for joining the tuition! i look forward to it man! oh,did i tell u tt there's a jap restaurant upstairs, we can go there and have lunch and maybe play some golf.. haha. bout your entry, you're great, I'm sure God is rreally please with you! like I am.. i'll be praying for God to give ya wisdom and favour, most importantly for God to work through you. yea, you said that u heard your conscience telling you to go help him. tell u what.. that was God telling you! haha,cool! good for you, eunice! God is good!
vanessa.. i guess no one else(except God) can comprehend the relationship you have with your dad. but from the descriptions you gave, i can tell that your dad really loves you and that you're really blessed. your dad wants the best for you, think about it, when u finally become a mum, you'll understand your dad.. it's this parental nature thing.. every parent wants the best for his child. your dad cares, bother and loves you so much thats why you may think he's unreasonable and that he doesnt understand you or he is a fool cos he hasnt seen God. have you ever looked at his past, i'm sure his parents never exposed him to God, that's why he doesnt know God.. you've to understand, alot of times, it's all in the family upbringing.. his parents arent Christians, I guess.. yea. that's why he grew up with the mentality of "I can survive without God" which reflects how he is now.. I mean, no human is perfect.
there's something i learnt from church.. try to look at others the way God would look at them..
like try to look at your dad the way God looks at everyone of us.. perfect without blemishes, beauty beyond the ugliness.. just focus on your dad's good points not his idiosyncrasies. and love your dad the way God loves you..
that worked for me many times.. and just for comfort.. God is your protector, your knight in shinning armour.. like we want Him to be our tower, our refuge, our strength, our hope, our shelter, our comfort, our counsellor, our saviour.. and YES, he is all that we want Him to be. My mum said that nothing can change the love that God has for us, nothing, nothing ever.. so, take comfort and rest in that simple truth that God's love for us is.. (go look up the thesaurus for the word"really huge" still no word will ever describe it).
sorry i took such a long time to type this thing down, but u gotta understand, i type really slowly..really really slowly. so please be patient..
and jenna, if you're reading this.. i wanna tell you that God loves you and he'll always be there for you.. always.
GOd bless..
beverly
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, November 28, 2003
i feel like writing..but my writing might not be good..so..if uve got nothg better to say abt it..piss off..stop reading it..##WARNING##
myfather'sways
the strong hatred i have against him..always seems to collapse into a pot[??] of love..his constant nagging..never fails to hold some form of logic..hes knowledgable..my respect for him so strong..i dno why i ever hated him..but again and again..i hurt him..just as many times he never failed to stab my heart..'it's becos i love you'he always says..but can tht always be the case??sometimes i turn and run..afraid to face the punishes he metes..but sometimes with tears..i see his face..'you always lie to me'..'u dirt bag'..youre the best liar'..but papa..dont u see??i try hard not to lie to you..i really try..i never meant to be naughty..always my actions may hurt..but dont u see??im a growing girl..yes to you..i may be a nuisance..but havent u been a child before??havent u experience the many struggles tht i face??havent u felt those moments tht put u in a spot..like how u struggle btwn wad is right and wad is wrong??espeacially when the wrong promises the fun tht the right will never..dont u see..a growing teen..its tough in our times.its different now..hows it for teenage sex??hows it for teenage smoking..its all abt peer pressure..dont claim u understand it..bcos u dont face the delimmas tht we do..u may say work is tough..but wads in for us..wads in for us when the future seems so bleak..wads in for us when we encounter many situations tht we never fully comprehend??dont u see??i just want u to hold me in ur arms..hold me tight..and tell me..things will be alright..and tht tell me..u'll be my sheild..let me picture u again papa..as my knight..as my protector..its funny how..how much emotions i have for u..when it really is my Father in heaven tht made me..but..He put us on earth for a reason..He put emotions in us for a reason..i have feelings too u kno pa??i yearn..i yearn so deeply for the day u'll turn..the day u'll turn and say..'He is my Father..'and i love Jesus..i yearn for tht day..and i kno tht day will come..although they say..in heaven u'll never kno anyone was as the person u knew on earth..it hurts me tht tht will be the case..but..wad brings the joy back..is the fact tht u'll be in heaven with me..dont talk to me abt being practical..dont tell me religon is one thg..staying alive is another..God made everything on earth..everything..He made money..u kno when u recited wad was written in the paper??abt money not being God but is like god??and the plan fact tht u agreed with it made me mock at u..i laughed at u..how..how can a daughter laugh at a father..u proved to be a fool..ure a bigger fool than me pa..thts cos i have Christ in me..u dont..and ure losing ur eternal life..u kno??u said in the car today..i'll be dead in a coupple of decades..i think of it now..and i fear..wad if i never managed to help u see the Light of my God..of the God of the wrld..wad if??i dont ever want to see u die..dying as a ignorant fool..u told me ure open abt religon..and this is wad God has done to help me..so i pray:
'dear Lord our Heavenly Father..i come to u in humbleness..i recognise the fact tht without u..nothg is possible..tht without U..i am nothing..so Lord..i ask U..halp me Lord..i need to change my father..i need to show Him ur way..He has strayed jus as ihave..pls forgive Him..hold it not against him but against his ignorance..help me soften his heart..so tht i can show him Ur wonders..Lord i yearn for his return to U..Lord i want to tell U..i want him to turn to U..and see Him as his saviour..as U have been to all in this wrld..amen..'Your servant forevermore..vanessa kang..
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, November 27, 2003
hmmmmmmms. its you people again huh! hahas. anyways, wanna tell bwong about my 1st successful experience about sharing God's love! hahas. he's so great he works wonders. (: anyways, back to the topic how God changed someones life. ok maybe God didnt change his life overnight, but still. i think he's showing a great improvement. ookaee. so ytd morning i was talking to my online friend. called JJ [short for jiajun]. and he has this other friend. his friend's name is ezra. yeap. so he added ezra into our crappie conversation, and we so called started talking. and i found the name ezra really familar, dont ask me why, so i asked ezra. are you from any church. he said he was, but not anymore. den i asked why, he said he doesnt go church anymore. too ashamed of what he did. and if i wanna know what he did ask JJ. so i did. and JJ said he drank alcohol, smoke, fight etc etc etc. den ezra said he brb and will go fag. i thought. whats fag. den i realised it was smoke. den when he came back frm smoking, i told him. how come you so ashamed. God will help you with anything. He will never think you're not worthy of Him. and that no matter what you do, as long as you accept Christ and ask for forgiveness, He'll forgive. den i asked him to come my church [since its a special service this sunday]. he said no. =| den i told him. God will take 99 steps. you just have to take that 1 step. den he said he'll go, someday. den i said sure? promise* den he said. yes. one day i will go back to church. when i feel im ready to accept God again. (: yeap. he's an expelled student. kinda the gone case type. but when i was told of his background, i heard my conscience telling me, go help him. he needs someone to guide him back. may sound funny and like cannot believe, but it really did happen. (: and yeap. im slowly guiding him back. telling him to smoke only once a day. so please, pray for him. and yes. let him go back to God, slowly, but surely. (: today, he said he believes in prayers. (: God works wonders. (:
With God, anything is possible.-- ME.
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, November 27, 2003
why do i feel like an airhead??
okayy anyways..ive got a proposal...lets tell as many pple as possible..to read this blog..i kno its not gona be cosy and stuff..but its abt our walk with Christ yarh..more pple shud read abt it??im not forcing it unto u..jus suggesting..
and u kno tht verse..only the firs two lines are the verse..its a longg verse..so yarh..i summerised it..and yarh..it worked..
veek chillin'.................
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, November 27, 2003
im blogging!im bloggin!oh boy!IM BLOGGING!!!
vank bursting bubbles.............
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, November 27, 2003
..there is a logic? dont see it. please specify, what you're talking bout okay vanessa, my dear! Vanessa, please tell me that there's nothing wrong with us.. haha. dngp9u gakgjnpriug jgnpaewug , iugw9ug ngpueawu!! agjnerougr gqerjng gerpgnpqe9rgh pgrnprq piog9ung , gbq8obn jgqneroMERRY CHRISTMASjbgrewgbpirugbpwigbpjkbnegb-q9ngfqpjngfbg.
Got the message! Van, thanks for the verse u gave, it was very comforting! AHH!! Christmas is coming.. I'm EXCITED. I'm EXCITED. I"M EXCITED. I love christmas. too bad. cant spend Christmas this year with u guys, if not it'll be great, really great. But i'll be in vegas, going to the strip-club.. ahah. NO! cant disgrace God, man, why did i say that...
fall on your knees
oh hear the angel's voices
oh night divine (you're supposed to go real high here)
oh night when Christ was born
oh night divine
i was singing at a really high-pitch, and my dad woke up and scolded me.. ahah. the time now is almost12, and i got too carried away and was singing at the top of my voice.. ahah. sigh, i'm so inconsiderate.
Anyway..
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
just like the ones i used to know
where the tree tops glisten
and children
to hear slay bells in the snow
I'm dreaming of a white christmas
with every christmas card i write
may your days be merry and bright
and may all your christmas-es be white
I really LOVE Christmas!
thus is the day that Christ was born..
ahh.. i'm swaying with the Christmas music now..
come on.. move to the beat! MOVE IT.
God bless you guys and me!
bev crawling away......
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, November 27, 2003
same thgs have different impacts on seperate pple..yesyess..see my logic??i think this is meaningful and this was wad i forgot tht was inmy first draft..ahhh..comprehension..
ohoohh..u kno in tht entry just below this un??theres apart where its supposed to be Jesus and not Hesus..tEEhEEX..
yeap~~
vee zooming away...............
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
`okayy..darn..i just deleted my post..anyways..im not here to console..im here to speak the facts..i just prayed to God abt letting me type the thgs He wants me to..so here goes..okayy??
first and for most..i had the most perfect thought tht wizzed through my mind..lets see..we..have the potential to carry Gods words..to show..to be His strongest warriors..thts why tht lil twerp there..a.k.a.satan wants to deter us!!get it get it??yesyess..he is patheticlly trying to instill in us this doubt abt ourAlmighty so tht we wont be the satan-slamming pple..yea~~so u see..the more times we fall..the stronger we get..and the harder it is to push us down the nxt time..so we shall stand up strong and fight for God..as one really irritating man once said:
'wad doesnt kill u makes u stronger'
yesyess..we all shall knod our heads and agree..anyways..ive already confessed..tht im fearing satan..but come to think of it again..why shud i??i have Hesus..and this outrageous thot just flew by..
'Jesus is being held captive by satan thts why He cant feel me and i cant feel Him'
stupid..i just realised it shud be the other way ard
okayy..confession time..
for tht coupple of days..i also din read the bible..the treacherous me..was too lazy to read it..yess..u read correctly..TOO LAZY TO READ THE WORD OF GOD..tsktsk..why..bwong..me and u shud be twinss!!!!!we seem to go through the same thgs..hahah..
yarh..selfish me..din think tht i wanted to die for God..selfish me..when it was me..tht put Him to death..with our sins..
bwong..i kno u'll reach the high highs if u set ur heart to God..u'll be able to bring glory to God..yess..anyways..back to the topic..i dno if its wrong..but whenever my first reaction is fear of death..i'll harp on it and then i'll force myself to say i'll do it..and for tht brief moment..i'll believe..and i think tht dream i had abt 'perhaps'..i dno wad i think of tht..but im sure its linked to wad im going through now..ookayy..
i feel like this entry was entirely empty writting..and tht i am being totally incoherent..but..heck..
okayy..im looking for verse now..
this is impt..
'dont worry abt the food u need to live on.dont worry abtthe clothes u need.if u have God.u need them not.'
YAY!!!
hahahahahaah..
vankang blasting off.................
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
okay, this is my draft3. after clicking the wrong button to erase the stuff that i wanted to post, i accidentally wiped off my draft2 without saving it. My oh my.. what is wrong with me. Just blogs and I--- not fated. speaking bout fate.. do I believe in fate? i dont know. what is fate, in the first place? someone please enlighten me. All i know is I believe that everything is planned by God, our ups and downs, our troughs and our crests(laugh..it's supposed to be a joke,if u know what i'm talking bout lah). But sometimes, Vanessa, you and I get that feeling of doubt towards God. In fact, for me, it comes and gets me caught up with it, very often. And when it comes, it comes to me mercilessly, devouring every part of me, every inch of my faith, hope and confidence in God. Yes, and I hate it, I really HATE that feeling. IT's all Lucifer's fault, all that pathetic, dying beast's fault. I know, I'm not supposed to be saying this, but, I hate him. I really detest him. if only you could see the fire in my eyes now and know how much that f***ing a*****e (I'm sorry, but I have to get this off my chest if not I'll errupt) has wrecked my life, my family, my faith in God and every part of me, then you'll understand why I hate him so much, the magnitude of my hatred to him is great, unfathomable, just like the love of God. sighh, I mean, it's human to have doubts about God.. I'm waiting for the day where I can just see God face-to-face, and I believe that that hour is nearing, nearing. Know what? Remember I told u guys about my spiritual warfare, regarding the dreams at night, yeah, I disappointed God, let Him the almighty down greatly. I have not been praying and reading the Bible for the past week, not even in the day, aside for some exceptions. Know what? today when I was brushing my teeth, I suddenly started to pray.Because everyday, my personal "routine" would be to wake up and pray whenever I'm brushing my teeth(but cos I've been such an idiot, i havent been doin so for the past wk), so cos it's kinda like already a habit to pray while I'm brushing my teeth, I started praying.. And I was surprised at what spurred me to praying after not doing so for a wk or so, and I was glad. My spirit was rejoicing. Then, guess who came? that freaking beast came and disrupted my prayer mood. And I started fearing that I'd better not pray because if I prayed, then I might get those dreams at night, and moreover I haven't been praying in the past week, So i'm a hypocrite and i have no right to pray, and yes, i succumbed, as I always do. Whatever that freakshow devil put into me made great sense to me.. And I didnt pray. Partly also because I reasoned out that my mum would be praying and she always prays for the family, so to me, it was like killing two birds with one stone. Dont you agree? I'm A BLOODY IDIOT FREAKSHOW THAT DESERVES TO BE SHOT. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? You know, I'm so ashamed to tell you all this, but, I want to let everyone know how despicable, how lowly I am, I want to be slapped, I want to be punished, I want to wake up, can you guys please scold me, dont comfort or console me! please.. take it that I beg u guys.Scold me, just scold me! I dont want to fear anymore, I dont want to be living life like this, so unworthy of God and of his forgiving and saving grace.. I want to cry, i wanna cry in God's arms.. Man, if I listed out all the things I have done that had displeased God, I would never finish listing them out, never, not in this lifetime.. I'm sure you guys must be thinking why i'm so long-winded, but devil, CHILL. I'm gonna continue writing, cos I can no longer keep all this inside of me, I'll explode and drown in guilt if I bottle all this within. So, devil, know what, your plan backfired, you're dying, dying soon. I'm gonna glorify God's name and I'm gonna start reading the Bible from today onwards. I'm sure the three of us will work together to achieve this goal.. how bout this, everytime we go online to fill this blog up, let's post a verse/verses that we have read the night before that we feel is really meaningful up here.. then we'll analyse it and disect it and use it in our lives. haha!..this time, devil, you're dead! How's that? Anyway, for now, I came across this Christian quote.. it says..
The Christian faith engages the profoundest problems the human mind can entertain and solves them completely and simply pointing to the Lamb of God... -A.W. Tozer
Think bout it okay? ..gotta go. And Jesus, I love you!
Love ALWAYS.
beverly
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
what-ever. sigh. i really feel very good after talking to kang. (: hahahas. kang. remember your promise*
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
ooooooiiiii!!noone told me abt this blog till today kkaes??..yarh anyways..actually im not so sure abt wad im doing here??so yuppss..okayyyyyyyyy..erms .lets see .okay lets start of with how much of an a*****e ive been for this past few weeks..you kno wad[sidetrack]i wanted to start my own blog abt my walk with Jesus too smetime bac but blogger seemed to have some major prob with my entries..like mr hungry always comes along and eats up my entry??..or maybe its just me..okayy..as i was saying..i had serious doubts abt Jesus this week..i was really wondering..wad if at the end of the road noones there..wad if i die and at the end of the ending theres no ending..im not trying to be profound here but thts the only way i kno how to phrase it..and dont try to sucker me by being profound and saying......
'yesyes..vanessa...i kno wad u mean'
thts not gona wrk..but yarh..i kinda chatted up with zhi min..cos noone else was online and it was too late to call anyone..she said this..
'i think even the most devoted christian would have doubts abt God..'
okayy tht was swwweeeeeeettt....yarh and tht really made me feel much better..thks ah min..yarh..i guess the walk with God aint gona be smooth sailing..its not gona be like woohoo~~if u get wad i mean..but still im willing to take on tht road..i still have fears abt being open abt me being a christian..like im still afraid abt being killed for my religon??but reading my past letters..i realised..i wana love God with my life..i asked Him to help me..but ive stopped asking..so its just the you-kno-who whos deterring me..well let me tell you this..
to you-kno-who:'nehnehninehnehs..i belong to Jesus!!!!'
yesyes..
vankang,signing off.............
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
hahahhas. i really really REALLY didnt know that was like only 3 days ago. anyways, yarh.
im too young. hahas. too innocent and naive. agree? (:
im furious at "im kissing mengzhe" lorhs.
its sooo damn irritating.
yeah this blog WILL survive.
I WILL SURVIVE!!!
thats what mr blog is telling us.
hees* anyways, i finished westside story pt2.
now i carn wait for pt3. great..
sighsighsigh. so much homework to do. so little time.
so about the sleepover thing? urm. come over some day yarh?
we'll have fun. (: i hope. hees*
love ya bwong!!
love xoxo eunice
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, November 26, 2003
it seems like we're the only two keeping this alive.
Nevermind, I'm sure this will SURVIVE.
EUNICE...
you are fifteen. ONLY fifteen- too young to handle matters of the heart..
WAY TOO YOUNG
maybe u can wait till you're sixteen. it'll sound better.
And "I'm kissing mengzhe" is ridiculous, outrageous and scandalous
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Tuesday, November 25, 2003
im feeling so lost. dont know what to do.
and yes BWONG my brother is sissy. ahhars*
AH i cannot fall for you again. (:
you made me fall for you when you never intended to catch my fall
meaningful but BWONG! dont u think "im kissing mengzhe" is so ridiculous :|
sighs help me bwong. cannot fall for "long" again.
love xoxo eunice:)
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 22, 2003
hey, I'm back again.. I've to say, SORRY eunice! I'm sorry for acting like a spoilt idiot earlier.. I was in a bad mood. Thanks, you guys, esp Eunice and Vanessa for tolerating all my crap whenever I was in a bad mood. THANKS, from the bottom of my heart. Sad to say.. my life is starting to change, it's no longer that smooth-sailing and that perfect.. people have changed, everyone around me has changed. All I know is that I have changed the most. I'm no longer that sweet and protective Beverly I used to be years ago... Sighh. Life is no longer the way it used to be.. that's sad. I wanna be young, I wanna be a child ever so carefree and light, with no inkling or whatsoever about this freaking world.. I'm sorry i have to post this, because I felt that I had to get it off my chest. Know what, life was really bad for me just 10mins ago.. You wouldnt imagine it.. But, thank God that you guys came along, were here all along. what more can I say, THANKYOU.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 22, 2003
hey! YES we are starting this blog.. Many times I've tried to start one by myself but always never had the(what do u call that).. memory? to remember my password and never had that motivation to continue updating.. But, this time, I'm sure with the rest of my wonderful peeps(YOU), it'll spur me to update this. Eunice, this'll work out, I hope! Eunice, great job.. Now, Celeste is gone, so there's one less person in this family to update this thing.. Still, I'm counting on the rest of you to do so..
love..
BevWong
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 22, 2003
hey bwong! we are starting this blog right? yeah
some kinda ity family cum 3e6 thing.
hope it works out.
REMEMBER to sign off after each entry.
love xoxo eunice
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, November 22, 2003
