blackout!!!wow!studying under the candle light!!sweeeettt!!!i managed a few pages of bio without getting so peeved at the darkness and shredding my textbook into pieces, burning them al in the effort of releasing stress.in the end. i walked into the examination hall with my blood screaming im gonna fail and high frm the fact tht in my head recides the sparse knowledge of heredity.
have you ever realise tht when you sit down to study, you tend to drift off and when you decide to stop studying since youre terribly unproductive.something in you keeps you seated??i dno.but i feel tht too many a times.like when there was absolutel no light in my estate for abt 2 hrs.i desperately wanted to study.but when light came on again, i thought to myself lets just go to sleep.its too late already.
seriously.today, before the papers started. i knew i was gonna fail. i could feel it in my blood.heh heh.but i managed to get through after all.devotion this morning really helped.it went something like "even in your worst days, God is still with you."i guess maybe right there in the examination hall.God was holding my hand and telling me."even if you fail.I still love you."tht probably got me through.and maybe with God's grace.i will scrape through.not maybe.if its what He thinks i deserve the definitely.i will scrape through.
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 30, 2004
hahaha yes beebs, we're in this together.
as of NOW, lets calculate the no. of days before the MIDS. 2
number of hours - 48
number of minutes - 48 x 60
number of seconds (do the math yourself)
im feeling so damn insecure for the exams, its like. i duno if i actually revised enough.
OH PRAISE THE LORD! my daddy bought me 4 christian CDs!
2 hillsongs, 1 WOW worship, and one more other one.
i AM elated. what a vast difference from yesterday night. (:
btw, who won the soccer match!?!
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, June 26, 2004
Chanced upon this from a friend of mine's blog. So true..
life is not just about anything on the surface, but sometimes there are more things deeper inside that matter. sometimes, some pple are just not worth all that time and sometimes we just have to all learn to forget and put aside. sometimes better friendships come out of things like that. we come to learn that small selfish squabbles are so apparent in the real world that sometimes everything just isn't worth it. and i guess, its always better gaining a friend than losing one to one stupid reason. that maybe i expect too much out of certain pple, and that puts them in wayy too tight a spot, that they think that everything they do has to fit my expectations and go according how i want it, sometimes i may seem like i want everything perfect in my life, but i guess, there are many reasons for many things tht we might not neccessarily ever understand, which does suck ultimately, but we get over it.
Cant reiterate more..
Let's seee..
bloody exams are in like what 3more days? okay.. 3, which is 72more hrs,4320mins,259200secs. oh man! okay,a sec has passed, another, another.. damn. exams. guess thats sth we wont be abl to run away from?
All the best to you dearies out there!
Eunice dearie: Rmb what I told you? I will never hurt you. we're in this shit together! and we'll come out stronger than ever!
love ya
--beeevvvvv
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, June 25, 2004
>
>Hi all,
>
>Just wanted to share with you something beautiful which I chanced upon when sufing the
>net. Just wanted to let you know, that God doesn't really place much importance in the
>words we use but rather, our desire to seek Him and to talk to Him.
>
>I encourage all of you to try talking to God. Perhaps you can give it a 5 mins shot. Just
>imagine that He is infront of you and tell him how your day went, what you liked about it
>and what you didn't like about it. I'm sure, as long as your heart is open towards God, He
>will find His place in your lives as well!
>
>Have a blessed week,
>Hazel :o)
>
>Teach Me How to Pray
>
>Author Unknown
>
>Please teach me, Lord...
> I want to know
> Exactly how to pray.
> I need some words
> Which ones are right?
> Please tell me what to say.
>
>I've bowed my head
> I have knelt down,
> But...should I be upright?
> I've closed my eyes,
> I've raised my hands,
> Or...should I fold them tight?
>
>Do I stand up?
> Should I sit down?
> Dear Lord...what do you like?
> Are lights turned on
> Or are they off?
> Maybe...candle light?
>
>Wear my glasses?
> Take them off?
> Be at my desk or table?
> Should I whisper?
> Speak out loud?
> Do I quote the Bible?
>
>What do you think
> About the time?
> Do You prefer the dawn?
> Should I pray fast,
> Or keep it slow?
> Better short...or long?
>
>I'm new at this
> What are the rules?
> I want to do it right.
> How do I know
> You'll even hear
> That I am in Your sight?
>
>And while I sat there quietly,
> Waiting for some sign,
> I heard a gentle voice say,
> "Oh, dearest child of mine...
> Do you think I really care
> About the time of day,
> Or whether you are standing up,
> Or kneeling when you pray?
>
>I don't care about your posture,
> Or about the place you choose;
> Just open up your soul to me,
> I have no other rules.
> Tell me what is in your heart,
> And tell me what you seek;
> Tell me of your sorrows,
> And of those things that made you weak.
>
>Speak to me in private
> About what concerns you most;
> I know about your good deeds...
> You have no need to boast.
> My child, you don't need lessons,
> Just talk to me each day;
> Tell me anything you want, dear child,
> Anyone can pray."
>
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, June 25, 2004
>MessageHere's an interesting conversation with God.....
>
>God: Hello. Did you call me?
>Me: Called you? No, who is this?
>God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
>Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now.
>am
>in the midst of something.
>God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too ...
>Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become
>hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
>God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you
>results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
>Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was
>not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
>God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you
>some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the
>medium
>you are comfortable with.
>Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
>God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it
>complicated.
>Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
>God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.
>You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your
>habit. That's why you are not happy.
>Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
>God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
>Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
>God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
>Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
>God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be
>purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
>With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.
>Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
>God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives
>the test first and the lessons afterwards.
>Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we
>be free from problems?
>God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial
>Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle
>and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
>Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where
>we are heading.
>God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
>Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken.
>Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
>Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving
>in the right direction. What should I do?
>God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is
>a
>measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying
>than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work
>with the clock.
>Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
>God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you
>have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
>Me: What surprises you about people?
>God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they
>never ask "Why me". Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but
>few want to be on the side of the truth.
>Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the
>answer.
>God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want
>to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it.
>Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
>Me: How can I get the best out of life?
>God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with
>confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
>Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not
>answered.
>God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
>Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the
>day with a new sense of inspiration.
>God: Well, Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your
>doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a
>problem
>to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. Best
>wishes for a good day.
>
>
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>Joys come from simple and natural things :
>mists over meadows, sunlight on leaves,
>the path of the moon over water.
>
>------------------------ Sigurd F. Olson ----------------------------
>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
some more!!!!!!
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, June 25, 2004
PINGU'S BACK!!no ones online.once again.our blog retrns to deep slumber..heh heh.
theres so much to sudy for ss.and i know nuts abt spotting.somebody help me spot!!!!!im not gonna get started untill someone helps me.i mean who can blame me.you oopen the book and a rush of sianness rushes over[who doesnt?then again i shouldnt do assumptions].wrse comes to worse.i'll do it random or whatever ah min calls it.the art of picking up your finger closing you eyes and pointing.beebs!!!!hello!!!your names callable.heh heh.
oohooh..ive got a couple nice emails.
Diane, a young university student, was home for the summer. She had
>gone
>to
> >visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared
>their
> >various experiences of the past year.
> >She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home
>alone.
>She
> >wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few
>blocks
> >away.
> >As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked "God" to
>keep
>her
> >safe from harm and danger.
> >When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she
>decided
> >to take it.
> >However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the
>end
>as
> >though he were waiting for her.
> >She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for "God's" protection.
> >Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped
>around
> >her, she felt as though someone was walking with her.
> >When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man
>and
> >arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper
>that
>a
> >young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes
>after
>she
> >had been there.
> >Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have
>been
> >her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help
>this
> >young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she
>could
> >recognize the man,so she told them her story.
> >The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to
>see if
>
> >she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the
>man
>she
>
> >had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had
>been
> >identified, he immediately broke down and confessed.
> >The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was
>anything
> >they could do for >her.
> >She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious
>as
>to
> >why he had not attacked her.
> >When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't
>alone.
>She
> >had two tall men walking on either side of her."
> >Moral of the story... Don't underestimate the power of Prayer! Gives
>ya
> >goosebumps doesn't it! To all of you who mean something to me, I
>wish
>you
> >happiness.
> >The Candle Of Love, Hope & Friendship
cool ehh?!?!?ive got more but lets just take it slow.
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, June 25, 2004
i distintively rmb you saying to me."i wish you were happy all the time."you probably dnt rmb saying it, but it sounded moronic.but now i want to say it too.i wish you can be happy all the time too.
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 23, 2004
The people who really have scars can afford to appear happy.
Because what they have are scars, not open wounds.
There are also two types of people who are funny but hide things..
Those who have accepted and know it's in the past, and those who are lost.
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Celestebelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 23, 2004
i was talking to a friend recently and she said tht pple say the loudest pple.the funniest pple at certain functions or occassions are those who have real scars.i dnt think so.i think lets not stereotype pple alrighties?different pple act or behave differently regarding similar situations.
anyway.
sunday is coming.will all my beloveds pls pray i can go to church.i really want to go.i need some spiritual direction.so pls pray for me kkaes?thanx.
i dnt think its i believe in the impossibles right??it should be i believe in Jesus.since he is Lord of everything.including the impossible.
yay!!
vk?yesvk.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Tuesday, June 22, 2004
i want a new church too celeste.
aaah. yes happy fathers day jesus! (:
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Monday, June 21, 2004
ACk i need a church.. :X
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Celestebelieves with God; everything's alrite.Monday, June 21, 2004
Okay. I LOVE going to church. I LOVE God! Church rocks! Yeah, today's sermon was just great, and so many people got saved. Anyways, I'm gonna start reading the bible from scratch. And Im gonna go teenzeal on sat! yay! anyone interested to come? sat, 1to4pm at suntec? its my church's youth service by the way.. Yeah, FOP was great although it was awhile ago, but yeah I wish we could have it as often as possible.. oh yeah.. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, JESUS!! Thankyou for dying on the cross for us, without You we wouldnt be who we are today. because of your grace, glory and mercy, we're free to dance! YAY! okay..
Jesus' blood never fails me
And I believe His blood will never fail you and your family,
So whatever your requests, with prayer and supplication, make it known to God.
The almighty One who never fails.
Cast your cares upon Him for He cares for you.
Remember, you're never never alone.
God is with you always.
How can it be that You are the one, the cross
Lifted for all our shame
How can it be the scars in Your hands, for me
And You are the king of all
And I love You more than life.
I love You, Jesus.
Peace be with you,
Bbbeevvv
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, June 20, 2004
Ahha!! This blog is being R-E-V-I-V-E-D... WE hAVE to keep it alive forevera nd ever and ever OKAY!! :)
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Celestebelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, June 19, 2004
Y-E-S!! Im HERE!! can you see me?? HHHHHEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Good! haha! vank's finally back. where have you been huh? STOP HIDING! COME OUT! okay..
Im going crazy, literally.. Im all alone at home! Gor's at army. Bryan's at some rugby camp in m'sia torturing himself out. Mummy's out shopping. Daddy's working(he's the most hardworking person in our family anyways). Everyone else's studying for mid-yrs except me, still trying to find my game boy.where is it huh? At least 3 of my friends are at church camp.. Where's Dorea, oi! are you back or not? The other people are partying, Im gonna be missing so many b'day parties,not supposed to go out.. Damn,and another friend's having a party tmr not because its her b'day, but because she's bored.. hah,i was laughing my head off. BUT i cant go!! damn.EXAMS.i hate exams! do you hate exams? i think so.. yeah,i cant wait for spiderman2.haha!Im going nuts.. lady dutch?ahahahh. sorry..
byye!
BEEBS(happy?)
wait.. let me see how many names ive accumulated for myself..
some are in cantonese, many are crap ramblings, so wont make any sense.
Beverly(mum), bev(everyone else), beaver(everyone else who thinks its funny but it obviously isnt!),chipmunk(everyone else who thinks its funny but it obviously isnt!), bwong(clau), beebs(maid), beeps(winny), beverbeebs(vank?cant rmb), beebsinogen(vank!),yi gu lai(=sec sis..greatgrandmum),asshole(bro), beef(maid+novita), bumble bee(sunday sch friends from 10yrs ago),bibilan(gor!), know what?alot of disgusting names that im sure if i were to post them, people(YOU KNOW WHO AH??)would start calling me them,so i'll save myself the humiliation =)
found some entertainment.. gdday!
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, June 17, 2004
uhh where did van go? holidae? sorry.
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, June 17, 2004
im bacck!!!!!!muahha muaha muahahaahahahahahahah..so boring.its always me up here tht i thought perhaps i should stop my blogging.so arh.besides my com was down.kkaes.
i love you you you you you you you you you you you you you..(ps.in no particular order.)schstarting soon.damn.im hating the project.today during meeting.i was wondering what the hell am i doing??i mean.its not like the entire thing is scientific or what.its just a bunch of survey forms abt how ignorant pple are abt lymphoma and leukemia.i mean.its not facts.medical facts.and im still doing it.sighh.
beebs!!!!!i felt like shouting your name.can you hear me?!?!?!?!beebs!!!!!BEEBS!!!!YOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..
VVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 16, 2004
I'm all alone. There's no one else out there. I'm losing my mind, temptations, haunting memories, nightmares, what have you. There's no one, all I get is jeering, reproving, chidings,hounding. I've only got myself. I never meant for this to happen, I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry if I never turned out how you wanted me to, if I don't live up to your expectations, if I'm a disgrace. As much as I don't want to, I apologize.
There's no hero, no strength, no love, no hope- Emptiness.
It's a long, bleak, lonely road.
But I believe in the impossible.
Guess I need to say this..
(in no particular order)
Dorea,Vanessa,Eunice,Zhimin,Winny,Brend,Mark,Sheeni,Nicole,Chloe,Celeste,Jerome,Sophia..
Thank you.
For being there and for making me stronger.
Love you guys.
Bev
Man, i feel much better now =)
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 16, 2004
this blog has been abandoned! and no one. NO ONE is writing in it.
this is weird. cuz its the holidays. |: ahhh.
when the music fades, all is stripped away
and i simply come. longing just to bring,
something that's of worth, that will bless your heart.
i'll bring you more than a song, for a song in itself,
its not what you have required.
you search much deeper within thru the way thing appear
you're looking into my heart
i'm coming back to the heart of worship,
when its all about you, its all about you, Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things ive made it,
when its all about you, its all about you Jesus..
hope you girls are studying hard. (: cyahs in school.
julianissohot.
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, June 16, 2004
