sigh.olympics closing ceremony.means another 4 more yrs.wah!!i'll be twenty by then.so old!!!!!i wana be in beijing for the next one.not as a competitor doofus.i marvel at how silly some pple can get.(: i feel so sad for tht russian gymnast.i mean his event was so good.soooooo goooooooooood!!!!but then.in competitions.your medal is in hands of the panel of judges.so sad man!!!!!if i were there i'd prolly have slapped the judges!!!!then did you see the papers???abt the marathon runner.he was leading and then some freaking spectator pushed him.he lost his lead.just 15 mins frm the finish.lost his lead shld still be sec right?but he lost his head too so he ended up third.i wld have baw;ed my eyes out mann.i really admire the competitors and the medalists.i somehow look at them in awe.and also in envy.i mean.you have your entire country rooting for you!!!!!!!!plus representing your country and all.olympics is like the congrgation of the elite man.like hah.we are the members of the elite club.heh heh.i wana go beijing in 4 yrs time!!!!!!!
i screwed physics prac up.focal length 6.3cm.funny arh.i dnt care if anyone screwed it up more.the fact is i screwed mine up and im not happy abt it!!!!!!!!!!!!does tht mean there goes my dream jc????ooh no ooh noo ohnoooo~~
vk
4 more yrs!!!such a long time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Monday, August 30, 2004
told you you've grown van. don't take what he says to heart. im happy you wrote them the letter. proud that you're willing to take one step back and reflect on what you said, and then act wisely according to it. church yesterday was good. had a 1 1/2 hr worship session! (: ooh yeah!
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Monday, August 30, 2004
yeap,damn right. Can tell that you've grown. Its good, now and then..
All the best for tmr's phy pract! SS mock exam! Bio pract! chem pract!
God help us!
heee =)
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Sunday, August 29, 2004
i grew a little today.nope.not in cm.but i grew.i guess.i learnt tht i dnt want to walk away deluded anymore.i want the truth.no matter how much it hurts.i learnt tht i never wana put the blame on anyone else.anything else anymore.theres so much to learn.i learned a little to day.theres so much more to becoming fit.i wana be able to say.this is all i am.this is all i can be.theres no more to it.cause im living it to the fullest.i wana feel as if ive tried the hardest i cld.this is the most i can be.this is the worthiest of who i'll ever be.its a learnign journey.i learned valuable lessons today.true learning is not studying abt lacteals, vessels and what nought.its learning things smaller.but so much deeper.a valuable lesson cannot be taught.it is experienced.and who brings you through the experience God.
its not abt being knowledgable.not abt becoming the smartest man alive.its abt experiencing something deep.and walking away frm it.richer than youve ever been.
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, August 27, 2004
i never knew all i am to you was tht.i guess i thought too highly of you.i guess i never thought you wld be such.what shld i say.i dnt hate you.probably im just disappointed.its not ou im talking abt its you.
vk
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Tuesday, August 24, 2004
(prays)
please let this conflict resolve.
i pray that you two will get along well.
even though she's changed...
dont let this be a cat fight.
(Amen.)
love you gals!
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Friday, August 20, 2004
prelims are coming.they really are.im scared.i want vjc.i want everything my bro can do.i want to succeed.and i dnt want to fail again.im scared.it hurts to know.i dnt want to be stupid.i want all the ones i can achieve.but i dnt want to fail.i dnt want to be called stupid.i dnt wana screw another national exam.i want 7 a1s.i want it bad.but the way things are looking now.how?!
Dear Lord,i pray for my frens and i tht we will start to work hard.tht we will not neglect you.tht we will not be so foolish as to think tht by sacrificing the time we have wth you we'll gain more time to study.i pray tht all of us will realise the fact tht without you we are nothing.come walk and work in our lives.show us the way.lastly Lord, i pray You teach us to accept Your will.tht we will not complain.Lord instill in us discipline, perseverence, hardworkingness.help us last till the very end.and tht Lord, everything we do will serve to glorify Your name.thank You.Amen.
we must do it together kkaes?!?!?yess!!!!!!!!!!
see you!!!
love you!!!!
byee!!!!
vanadium.
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Saturday, August 14, 2004
CONGRATULATIONS DARLINGS!
am so so so so so proud of beverly, vanessa, winny and ah min! of cus celeste too. Beverly, told you everything will be alrite right? okay, so fine. now i owe you a mcflurry. at least i wont put on calories by buying you an ice cream. pics will be up soon in my blog.
VANESSA KANG. i can slap ure face upside down man. like PUH-LEASE. hahaha, you went on and on about how you're gonna get an f10 if possible, but now? a B3 dear. B3! haha. im so proud of you. im glad you studied. im glad you persevered thru the ordeal! God was watching you all along!
AH MIN! oohh. this one im proud of. haha. im not scanning da picture in todae, will do so another dae when im more free and when i can drag the scanner out of the freaking drawer!!! AHHH. im elated. im happy you all did well!
winny hasan, i hate you. for leaving us. hohohoooo. im happy for you that you'll be in a school where it can bring you to where you want to go. miss you lots. reallyyy.
oh. john got B3, distinction. haha. guess i was right. (:
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Eunice Ngbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, August 12, 2004
im back again.so bored.so boring.nothing to do.thts twice in one day.ooh boy.prelims are nearing and yet.and yet.i know its coming but yet.why?where is the discipline?i dno.missing winny
v
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, August 11, 2004
the water works started and it couldnt stop.was raining in the cab.sigh.so sad.feel like a part of mes gone?how chliched.sigh.know the song tht goes if tmr never comes..well.yesterday's tmr never did come.at least the things tht were supposed to happen didnt.i swear im goin have a nervous breakdown.i miss winny hasan.didnt think i'd shed.but yarh.i did.sighh..ooh no..ooh boy..i think im in love..hahahhhahahah..talking shit again.i dnt wana care bout chis results anymore.everythings so uncertaint.how to live with uncertainty???sighh..ooh..DADDY'S BACK!!!!!tripple muacks to my very own daddy.miss him so so so much.yeapp.did i mention i think im in love.you see.love is just a mind game.try this.think over and over again tht your in love with me and you will somehow.its just a mind game for the emotionally wrecked and insecure pple.i dno bout others.somehow.i dnt think love really exists the way we perceive it to be.but thts what makes it nice!!!!okayy.i think im really in love.thts why i keep talking abt love.yuck sick.but the diff is.im one hell of a emotional wreck right?so how deep can the love be??how deep is your love????hahahah.kinda in a singing mood.yupp.theres one thing im sure of.IM IN LOVE WITH JESUS!!!!!!!!He kept my daddy save.He ansed my prayer.because He's a living God!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jesus lives!!!!!amen!!!!!!
v
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Wednesday, August 11, 2004
ooh no..you know what day it is tmr?ooh boy..i think im gonna faint.im dying.i wish man.ooh no.im whimpering like a dog with its tail between its legs.ooh no.im scared.i really am.its tmr..its really tmr..ooh no..its tmr!!!!can anyone hear me?!?!?!??!?!ITS TMR!!!!!!!!!SHIT SHITshit shit shit.its tmr.i cant believe it.i wish it was before we took our chi os.i wish it at the end of the year.i never felt so so so..apprehensive??i dno if thts the word.ive never in my freaking life felt like this towards exams.towards receiving my results.and its only chi.can you pic me after our os.telling my story to my poor poor poor friends??i guess i dnt wana screw up another national exam.shit.im scared.what if i screwed chi up??huh..how??i am such a whinner.somebody tell me to shut up pls?!?!?!?SHUT UP VANADIUM.SHUT UP!!okay fine i will.see..the results are driving me up the wall.shit.i think im loosing it.how?i think im going insane!!ooh no!!i dnt wanna be tied up in a strait-jacket and get holed up in some stinking asylum!!!i dont wana!!!!!!ooh but strait- jacket's only for pple who might hurt themselves right???ooh then i need not worry, i love myself far too much.but then again.i just dont wana get thrown into an asylum!!!!!ooh no!!!!!!!HOW?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!
V
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Tuesday, August 10, 2004
todays the 5th.like wow.in abt a weeks time.youre leaviing.i dnt exactly know what im feeling.somehow.i still think your being ur usual stupid self.sigh.results out next week.youre leaving next week.looks like next weeks gonna be glumm huh.sigh.i'll miss you w**** asshole/i really will.i guess.sigh.what am i to say if its the path made out for you?dno.what am i supposed to say.i just hope really really hard i wont cry.i dnt wana cry.i hope nothing makes me cry.not my results.not your leaving.i dnt wana cry ever.gonna fit a cork through my tear ducts.whatever it is.i cannot cry if i pass chinese.if i [pass i cannot allow myself to cry.i cannot be a hypocrite and cry.and fret abt my results.i set it up to Him.so i should leave the baggage there.
"we must not be conscious abt the sins tht we have commited.because then we are doubting the worth of Jesus' blood.His blood cleaned of our sins.and we believe in tht."
if somone says to you."God does not hear me,"ask him to curse God.ask him to hurl vulgarities at Him.what he would reply would be expected."He will be angry,"in all ignorance.have we diminished the Lord in our eyes.do we mean to say.God hears not our cries for help but hears the negative things we say abt Him.have we ?think the next time you wish to say."God hears me not."He is here.He hears.but His plans are not known to men.just as how you would feel if your counterpart has no understanding of what you have discussed and thus because of the misunderstanding accuses you.what do you think the One who provides you with unconditional love would feel.it is unfair to pass judgement over something tht you have no understanding of.hence dont question the Lord and His plans.because you do not understand.
vanadium
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Anonymousbelieves with God; everything's alrite.Thursday, August 05, 2004
